I am bored, so I'll just type random stories here. Better than saying about my life. :D


"Don't cry" He said, with a sneer on his lips, his violet eyes bore into me. I took a few steps back, and a whimper escaped my lips. I looked around, and as much as I wanted to will doors and windows, there were none. Just bare brown walls, and brown floors. So brown all over, I couldn't tell where the wall ended, or where exactly is the floor.

I was in a room, literally without any opening, with a stranger that looked like he ate lions for breakfast.

"Don't be afraid." He whispered, hands reaching out for my shoulders as he continued to advance towards me, now only three or perhaps four steps away from me.

"He was never your friend. He's lying, using illusion. If I wanted to kill you, wouldn't I have done it already?"His breath reminded me of a cornfield. His nails glistened and shone under the fluorescent light, as his nail caress my cheek, drawing a little blood as his nails move down to my chin.

"But why? Why would he lie to me?" I struggled to speak, and staring into his eyes I felt my soul slipping away as if I'm falling from the hundredth floor, and still have not reached the ground.

"Because he's your doubts, my love. To him, to you, I'm something dangerous. New, exciting, alive. Everything he hates. Do you still want to, continue falling, as I call it? Or join me, get a breath of fresh, rosy air?" A tinge of laughter colored his voice. His fingers trailed down to my chestbone, and to my horror, his nails dig deep into my chest.

Blood started gushing out, warm, wet and black.I could feel my flesh give way to his nails,like it was sand against steel. I struggled against him, but his fingers took hold of my rib and a burning pain tore through me. He kept on smiling as I screamed and tried to hold his hand from going any further. He continued fingering his way around my lungs, my spine. Before I could faint from the pain of it all, I felt his fingers wrap around my heart. He gave it a little squeeze.

And my mouth gasped involuntarily, and sucked in a lungful of air. My first real breath in ten years.

Finally.

Is it because I talked weird,
that you have kept quiet?

Is it because I'm morbid,
that you have kept quiet?

For this is the real me, I'm allowing myself to be who I truly am. Whom my heart shows myself to be. Only my mind keeps this lips from cursing those who condemn me.

I'm changing , yes, to better or worse, that I do not know. But I know, I feel free this way.

Don't be afraid of me. For I'm just like you, only different, only more free of society's clutches.. each and every day.

No, I'm not trying to imitate. Deep inside, I relate to vampires more than anybody. For a vampire resembles many things for different people. And there's a vampire in every one of us.

The sorrow.
The outcast.
The misunderstood.
The elegance.

In all of us.

The more cruel I let myself be, the more kind I become.

It's strange. But of course, yin and yang.

Helped a stranger today. She didn't know her way around SP. Personally, walked her to that place, while carrying my heavy bags. I had entertained the thought of just leaving her there, and even point her to the wrong direction. I felt good thinking of these bad things, and I felt more at ease to do good things.

Weird.

Why am I blogging about this? I just want to show off. Or maybe I just want to make you want to do the same, help strangers.


Yin and yang, they always go hand in hand.

;)

I really wanna delete this blog.

But i guess, I just suck at moving on ay? XD

I am ready to feel my emotions to their fullest extent. I have supressed so much excitement, so much sadness, and numbing myself. I went day to day not feeling anything. I also stayed away from touches, cause it opened a door where my emotions would blare back to life.


Now, I'm mentally ready. God, please let me be strong. To not trip over guys that are not worth it, to not prick over friends that are not worth it, and to have the wisdom to know when to place myself first.

In love with district 9, the most entertaining action-packed, sci-fi movie that has a powerful hold on my heart.

It is like watching something powerful and metallic, but with a beating, human heart.

Even if you think the trailer is so-so, please give this movie a watch. It is a must, because it is realistically made ,despite the alien involvement. It is something that is not like transformers 2, where the heroes will never die and the evil people always die. The jokes are just lame and plain.. put there to pass time.

This is the real deal, and it will make you feel like crying. At least, want to. It somehow reminds me of ET, in a way, but this time in a more painful , heart-wrenching way.

I am not good with describing something, and still not give the plot away. So, please watch this, and if this doesn't suit your taste, you can don't trust my word anymore. Abandon my blog. That's my promise.

And do take note while watching, that the main actor, during those 'interviews' he has, .. he improvs on his script. Meaning, he makes up and changes his own dialogue along the way, every time. Of course, still keeping the essence of the dialogue the same.

Kudos to everyone involved in this film!

Worth your money, unless if you're wanting to watch comedy. Then please go watch something else.

Isn't everything a cycle? Everything is just the same thing.

The movies. The food. In essence, mostly the same. Now and then, rarely something powerful and original pops out.

I wonder what the rest of the world is doing? Plotting some evil plan? Bumming at home? Doing something meaningless? Suffering or enjoying over trivial stuff?

Nadadada. Can I go to the public, and just scream? Maybe it will break everybody's daily trance of doing daily activities.

“Something has moved and bumped the cradle of everything. The world is out of sync. Birds fly backwards and the fish swim through the air. Hours pass like seconds and seconds pass like hours. The light fades before the sun leaves. The stars shine before the night falls. I am here early. You are here late.”

-Karish-ma on tumblr

Nothing to say, for the first time. Solitude is becoming a tad too addictive.

I am bored, so I'll just type random stories here. Better than saying about my life. :D


"Don't cry" He said, with a sneer on his lips, his violet eyes bore into me. I took a few steps back, and a whimper escaped my lips. I looked around, and as much as I wanted to will doors and windows, there were none. Just bare brown walls, and brown floors. So brown all over, I couldn't tell where the wall ended, or where exactly is the floor.

I was in a room, literally without any opening, with a stranger that looked like he ate lions for breakfast.

"Don't be afraid." He whispered, hands reaching out for my shoulders as he continued to advance towards me, now only three or perhaps four steps away from me.

"He was never your friend. He's lying, using illusion. If I wanted to kill you, wouldn't I have done it already?"His breath reminded me of a cornfield. His nails glistened and shone under the fluorescent light, as his nail caress my cheek, drawing a little blood as his nails move down to my chin.

"But why? Why would he lie to me?" I struggled to speak, and staring into his eyes I felt my soul slipping away as if I'm falling from the hundredth floor, and still have not reached the ground.

"Because he's your doubts, my love. To him, to you, I'm something dangerous. New, exciting, alive. Everything he hates. Do you still want to, continue falling, as I call it? Or join me, get a breath of fresh, rosy air?" A tinge of laughter colored his voice. His fingers trailed down to my chestbone, and to my horror, his nails dig deep into my chest.

Blood started gushing out, warm, wet and black.I could feel my flesh give way to his nails,like it was sand against steel. I struggled against him, but his fingers took hold of my rib and a burning pain tore through me. He kept on smiling as I screamed and tried to hold his hand from going any further. He continued fingering his way around my lungs, my spine. Before I could faint from the pain of it all, I felt his fingers wrap around my heart. He gave it a little squeeze.

And my mouth gasped involuntarily, and sucked in a lungful of air. My first real breath in ten years.

Finally.

Is it because I talked weird,
that you have kept quiet?

Is it because I'm morbid,
that you have kept quiet?

For this is the real me, I'm allowing myself to be who I truly am. Whom my heart shows myself to be. Only my mind keeps this lips from cursing those who condemn me.

I'm changing , yes, to better or worse, that I do not know. But I know, I feel free this way.

Don't be afraid of me. For I'm just like you, only different, only more free of society's clutches.. each and every day.

No, I'm not trying to imitate. Deep inside, I relate to vampires more than anybody. For a vampire resembles many things for different people. And there's a vampire in every one of us.

The sorrow.
The outcast.
The misunderstood.
The elegance.

In all of us.

The more cruel I let myself be, the more kind I become.

It's strange. But of course, yin and yang.

Helped a stranger today. She didn't know her way around SP. Personally, walked her to that place, while carrying my heavy bags. I had entertained the thought of just leaving her there, and even point her to the wrong direction. I felt good thinking of these bad things, and I felt more at ease to do good things.

Weird.

Why am I blogging about this? I just want to show off. Or maybe I just want to make you want to do the same, help strangers.


Yin and yang, they always go hand in hand.

;)

I really wanna delete this blog.

But i guess, I just suck at moving on ay? XD

I am ready to feel my emotions to their fullest extent. I have supressed so much excitement, so much sadness, and numbing myself. I went day to day not feeling anything. I also stayed away from touches, cause it opened a door where my emotions would blare back to life.


Now, I'm mentally ready. God, please let me be strong. To not trip over guys that are not worth it, to not prick over friends that are not worth it, and to have the wisdom to know when to place myself first.

In love with district 9, the most entertaining action-packed, sci-fi movie that has a powerful hold on my heart.

It is like watching something powerful and metallic, but with a beating, human heart.

Even if you think the trailer is so-so, please give this movie a watch. It is a must, because it is realistically made ,despite the alien involvement. It is something that is not like transformers 2, where the heroes will never die and the evil people always die. The jokes are just lame and plain.. put there to pass time.

This is the real deal, and it will make you feel like crying. At least, want to. It somehow reminds me of ET, in a way, but this time in a more painful , heart-wrenching way.

I am not good with describing something, and still not give the plot away. So, please watch this, and if this doesn't suit your taste, you can don't trust my word anymore. Abandon my blog. That's my promise.

And do take note while watching, that the main actor, during those 'interviews' he has, .. he improvs on his script. Meaning, he makes up and changes his own dialogue along the way, every time. Of course, still keeping the essence of the dialogue the same.

Kudos to everyone involved in this film!

Worth your money, unless if you're wanting to watch comedy. Then please go watch something else.

Isn't everything a cycle? Everything is just the same thing.

The movies. The food. In essence, mostly the same. Now and then, rarely something powerful and original pops out.

I wonder what the rest of the world is doing? Plotting some evil plan? Bumming at home? Doing something meaningless? Suffering or enjoying over trivial stuff?

Nadadada. Can I go to the public, and just scream? Maybe it will break everybody's daily trance of doing daily activities.

“Something has moved and bumped the cradle of everything. The world is out of sync. Birds fly backwards and the fish swim through the air. Hours pass like seconds and seconds pass like hours. The light fades before the sun leaves. The stars shine before the night falls. I am here early. You are here late.”

-Karish-ma on tumblr

Nothing to say, for the first time. Solitude is becoming a tad too addictive.