I am actually so intent to write on the happy stuff today. Like the videos and stuff.

I find you still cute.

And that I am sad that I might only love myself superficially. Sad that no matter how hard I tries, she gets the love.

It's okay. I know I am only pretending. I just want to be loved. Maybe just a little too badly.

And I miss being able to believe that someone outside my family misses me so bad, they dream of me.

Yeah, I am sad like that.

I am actually so intent to write on the happy stuff today. Like the videos and stuff.

I find you still cute.

And that I am sad that I might only love myself superficially. Sad that no matter how hard I tries, she gets the love.

It's okay. I know I am only pretending. I just want to be loved. Maybe just a little too badly.

And I miss being able to believe that someone outside my family misses me so bad, they dream of me.

Yeah, I am sad like that.