Something about some people just don't seem right. They are happy at the time, very hyped up, cheery and cheery, cheeks oh so rosy but something feels diff about them. I don't feel their happiness. It feels very hollow.

Yet, when I am around those who are pretty much calm, only smiling but not laughing, they seem to radiate much more happiness than the the so-called hyper ones. I feel much more filled up around them.

I don't know. My feelings have grown stronger. I can actually feel if people are truly happy or not. I don't know how. But I can. I can sense the off-ness of the jokes, the hugs and guffaws.

I can feel it last time, now I can sense it twice more sensitively.

I know now better than to pretend to be happy. I'd rather be calm, and truly contented, then being so wild, yet missing something important.

:)

My age maybe 17. But I think I am more of a 40 year old. It's tiring to pretend to be immature most of the time, just to get along. If I act my mental age, my true self, I think it's hard to connect with others.

Altho I do keep those who are of the same mental age as me, very very close to me.

And NO. I do not mean 40 year old, as being too realist, or pessimistic, or just plain bitter. NO. That's not mature. I mean those who are full of hope, doesn't deny the reality but still strive to achieve the best, realistically and without doubts. Never gave up on things they believed in because they know in the end, that is all they have.

LOL. Me now backs to 17!

Muahhx!

Something about some people just don't seem right. They are happy at the time, very hyped up, cheery and cheery, cheeks oh so rosy but something feels diff about them. I don't feel their happiness. It feels very hollow.

Yet, when I am around those who are pretty much calm, only smiling but not laughing, they seem to radiate much more happiness than the the so-called hyper ones. I feel much more filled up around them.

I don't know. My feelings have grown stronger. I can actually feel if people are truly happy or not. I don't know how. But I can. I can sense the off-ness of the jokes, the hugs and guffaws.

I can feel it last time, now I can sense it twice more sensitively.

I know now better than to pretend to be happy. I'd rather be calm, and truly contented, then being so wild, yet missing something important.

:)

My age maybe 17. But I think I am more of a 40 year old. It's tiring to pretend to be immature most of the time, just to get along. If I act my mental age, my true self, I think it's hard to connect with others.

Altho I do keep those who are of the same mental age as me, very very close to me.

And NO. I do not mean 40 year old, as being too realist, or pessimistic, or just plain bitter. NO. That's not mature. I mean those who are full of hope, doesn't deny the reality but still strive to achieve the best, realistically and without doubts. Never gave up on things they believed in because they know in the end, that is all they have.

LOL. Me now backs to 17!

Muahhx!