The old me is dead and gone. I may look similar, behave similar to the girl that you once knew. But no, she has decided to let go, and let me take over. And when you meet me now, you will feel the difference. The aura has changed. So have you.
I feel weird these days. At times, I feel perfectly like a man. I feel very agressive, dominant, and am easily distracted by visuals. I want to fight and protect. And other manly stuff which I rather not say.
It's crazy.
And at other times, I feel perfectly like a woman. I feel very graceful, very serene, and filled up with pure love. I see a lot of beauty in the people and things around me and I tend to be more affectionate. I will like play dress up and etc.
I am usually in the middle.
I think it must be my irregular hours of sleep, and that 1 big cup of ice-cream I kept eating.
Well, today, I am going to have another drama meeting, which I hope will keep getting more fun! And I can't wait for tomorrow! Going to the east coast park with my drama lovelies! :D So happy, been years since I have been there again. Okay, maybe just a few months, but hey, it does feel that long! I could feel the wind, the rush of the water, the dew on my skin and.. those birds, they will sing again in my ears! Reminds me of the sunrise with 1a01. :)
Found a new game called Combat Arms! It's like counter-strike with a touch of halo! Seriously. It's a nice first-person shooter game, and most of all , its free! Totally free. The only drawback is that there are players in there who cheats in the game through hacking. I guess, their shooting skills sucks.
And another game called Left 4 Dead. Awesome zombie game! URGH! But I have to buy the cd for sixty bucks.. Aiyah, those who have please tag? Then, maybe.. I can ... 'steal'.. Haha! This game is best played in advanced mode, and its not for the faint hearted!
Read a book about how living in denial, delusion and blame destroys our lives. Its super hard to detect. But you can always ask yourselve, am I blaming anyone or myself or something else? Is the situation really what it is? And what essential truth did I refused to accept? It's not easy to detect, and living in denial is the start of all problems.
Just went Karaoke @ Mob with Xiang Ting! XDDD Even the auntie also be more friendly to us. Thought of inviting the Uncle along to sing with us~ All the emo song all come out like Wo Men De Ai/ My Heart Will Go On/ Burn /Boyfriend (5566) / In The End and I feel comfortable now, just screaming my voice out, whether it sounds good or not. Which turns out, NOT. XDD Getting better at improving my self-confidence!
& there is this diploma-plus called Phlebotomy . I didn't know what it meant and I asked XT. She said, its the study of dissecting frogs. It's even a highly wanted job. I choked on my coffee.
Just joking ah, if you people feel like I offended SP. :)
Had Dreamweaver workshop yesterday! It really does feel like a mini class reunion! Saw Cheeryl, Jun Ho & Xiang Ting! And some 1b02 people~ It was a delightful gathering, and I did learnt important things that I might not get the chance to learn in school. Like AJAX language and shortcuts to using dreamweaver. The teacher was superb. The pace of the lesson was just right, and not too fast and I'll be lost or too slow which can make me be very bored. The teacher was persistently friendly, even though the initial response was pretty lukewarm. The students didn't really open up until about afternoon time, 1pm+. That's the time where everyone starts loosening up, had fun and learnt more new things!
More to update, but let me drink that coffee I just choked on.
