Feel sad now, about my studies. Didn't get it. It's going to be alright for me, but still, I could have done much better.

It's heartbreaking. Becomes moany myrtle. (Harry Potter Moany Ghost) Walks along the road, moaning at everyone as though they owe her a million bucks.

Nah. I am just exaggerating. Heh.

Anyway, I'm writing short stories, starting from today. My beautifully delayed dream being worked upon now! :) Yes, I do love writing stories, cause I am a dreamer.

And I was just thinking, you know.. If I were to die, I am most likely, going to be the corpse with the most outrageous clothing. Of course NOT my birthday suit, but I would request to wear some frilly gown before they bury me~ :D Hehe!

But still, I have to die with just my birthday suit. Omg. Why am I talking about my corpse?!

Okay, been looking around my friend's blogs. Some go overseas, some travel here and there, some just stuck at home (like me.. XP) and others sleep all the time. Some want to work, some want to just stone.

Woah, I guess my definition of holiday totally differ. I want a holiday that every day is no rest, just go out and party!

How about robbing bankS, get away with it, and spend most of it on building singing/acting institutions everywhere in the world, which focus on talent and uniqueness instead of sex symbols! Hollywood would have a run for their money!

Maybe pop up at MediaCorp and just delay the tv production episodes. Imagine, watching Red Thread / News on Channel 5? And some chubby chick with super bright clothes, walking around, and making funny faces at the camera, and then when the director comes in and ask me to go away.. I'll just pretend to not hear him. And shout my tag line, "COME AGAIN?" Then giggle like some bimbo, and sashay off~

Freaky.. (guffaws)

Experience new things, and just live life out to the max. Maybe hook up with some super hot guy and then dump him and break his heart. Or try to sneak into Britain illegally, and give Daniel Radcliffe a kiss, hypnotise him to marrying me, take a picture, spread all over the world with the headlines "Daniel engaged to an Asian girlfriend?" . XD ~ And the very two last day before school starts, sleep the whole day at the rooftop of a hotel with the most beautiful view of the ocean , so I can see the sunset and sunrise.

Then, I can safely say, I am mentally ready for school!

What can I say? I think I am the most happily mental human I've ever known. Which I am kinda proud of!

Wow, I love my blog. It's messy, super colourful and so me~

Finally.

:P Of course, thanks to electric for all the codes!

I feel weird these days. At times, I feel perfectly like a man. I feel very agressive, dominant, and am easily distracted by visuals. I want to fight and protect. And other manly stuff which I rather not say.

It's crazy.


And at other times, I feel perfectly like a woman. I feel very graceful, very serene, and filled up with pure love. I see a lot of beauty in the people and things around me and I tend to be more affectionate. I will like play dress up and etc.

I am usually in the middle.

I think it must be my irregular hours of sleep, and that 1 big cup of ice-cream I kept eating.


Well, today, I am going to have another drama meeting, which I hope will keep getting more fun! And I can't wait for tomorrow! Going to the east coast park with my drama lovelies! :D So happy, been years since I have been there again. Okay, maybe just a few months, but hey, it does feel that long! I could feel the wind, the rush of the water, the dew on my skin and.. those birds, they will sing again in my ears! Reminds me of the sunrise with 1a01. :)




Found a new game called Combat Arms! It's like counter-strike with a touch of halo! Seriously. It's a nice first-person shooter game, and most of all , its free! Totally free. The only drawback is that there are players in there who cheats in the game through hacking. I guess, their shooting skills sucks.




And another game called Left 4 Dead. Awesome zombie game! URGH! But I have to buy the cd for sixty bucks.. Aiyah, those who have please tag? Then, maybe.. I can ... 'steal'.. Haha! This game is best played in advanced mode, and its not for the faint hearted!

Read a book about how living in denial, delusion and blame destroys our lives. Its super hard to detect. But you can always ask yourselve, am I blaming anyone or myself or something else? Is the situation really what it is? And what essential truth did I refused to accept? It's not easy to detect, and living in denial is the start of all problems.

Just went Karaoke @ Mob with Xiang Ting! XDDD Even the auntie also be more friendly to us. Thought of inviting the Uncle along to sing with us~ All the emo song all come out like Wo Men De Ai/ My Heart Will Go On/ Burn /Boyfriend (5566) / In The End and I feel comfortable now, just screaming my voice out, whether it sounds good or not. Which turns out, NOT. XDD Getting better at improving my self-confidence!

& there is this diploma-plus called Phlebotomy . I didn't know what it meant and I asked XT. She said, its the study of dissecting frogs. It's even a highly wanted job. I choked on my coffee.

Just joking ah, if you people feel like I offended SP. :)

Had Dreamweaver workshop yesterday! It really does feel like a mini class reunion! Saw Cheeryl, Jun Ho & Xiang Ting! And some 1b02 people~ It was a delightful gathering, and I did learnt important things that I might not get the chance to learn in school. Like AJAX language and shortcuts to using dreamweaver. The teacher was superb. The pace of the lesson was just right, and not too fast and I'll be lost or too slow which can make me be very bored. The teacher was persistently friendly, even though the initial response was pretty lukewarm. The students didn't really open up until about afternoon time, 1pm+. That's the time where everyone starts loosening up, had fun and learnt more new things!

More to update, but let me drink that coffee I just choked on.

Wow. My ability to cope is getting better! All I need to do is just reach out to those near to me, and I am in friends' company! I am even enjoying my time with my family! Things certainly are looking up!

I am getting better liking my time alone. It's not always that I get time to just be alone, and be present here and now, without any worries, without anyone calling or texting me. It's total solitude that keeps my mind fresh. I never got this kind of silence before.

I faced some of my fears, debunk the denials I had, and try to spot other denials that I have in my life.

My voice getting better in terms of power, and I can hear my off tune notes even better. :D Improving on that, and will be going higher up the scale !

Read up on the news about the man who raped his own daughter, causing her to father a lot of his children. URGH. He just pleaded guilty to all charges and just said 'I'm sorry'. I hope some rabid dog loves you and fucks you 20 times per day.Maybe by some glitch, he gets pregnant and delivers 20 dog babies. Then the dog just says "Woof Woof = I'm sorry'. Fucker.

Moving on from that disturbing note...

I did a lot of things in my holiday to-do list. I can't believe it! It feels wonderful right now to actually able to be at this level of happiness. Of course, with all the happy times, I've cut down on my exercise.. And I am more cute now. XDDD

Okay, I know. More exercise.

Watched Race to Witch Mountain! Thanks Shin Puay for the review! I loved it! With all it's clicheness, and a bit of dejavu of Spy Kids, I loved it! Especially when the super hot The Rock is starring in it. I can't deny it, I have the hots for him. :P Besides, the movie rekindled my passion for technology and knowledge. Borrowed 4 books after watching that movie!

Its about this taxi driver, who got out of jail after working for some crime boss. He tries to be a clean slate, by working as a taxi driver. However, aliens that crashed on Earth recently, needs his help as they chanced upon him. They need his services to race for time, to save their planet and Earth from an impending war between the planets. He , on the other hand, doesn't believe they are aliens. And that he might just get back to jail if he were to help th

The aliens have cool powers man! Like moving objects with mind, re-arranging the body's molecules and etc. Not going to spoil you! ;)

I think I just got a job in SP! Ohmy, its going to be wonderful! I don't know, maybe I will have trouble coping. I am going to try anyway~

I love Cecilia Ahern. She is the first clean romantic book that held my attention. :D

Its about two best friends who grow up together, Alex & Rosie, and ended up falling for each other. They are perfect for each other but somehow they just can't get things to go their way to be together. They grow up, separated despite writing letters to each other for 25+ years. Everyone else can see that they love each other, but they can't. They just deny it. Read on, to see how they try to get back through their denials and obstacles to be together as they were when they were five.

So much to update, and I feel ... like procastinating. hehe!

I hope you guys enjoy your holidays! Make the best of it, cause year 2 is going to be one hell of a ride!

THANKS TO CHEERYL. SHE MADE MY DAY TODAY!!!

Omg. I saw some of my classmates today.

All the feelings rushed back! Imagine feeling the strongest lust you've ever felt, and then add in the most warmest, softest, soothing love you've ever felt.

It's like having fantasys while being asleep in your warm, secure lover's arms. It feels like that!

Okay, nvm,. LOL.

Wahhhh.. SO UNFAIR. I WAS ABOUT TO ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS ...


:(


At least it shows how much I love them. Haha!

Been happier these days! :) Cause I am controlling my negative thoughts, and forgiving those who had hurt me badly. Not easy, because it seems unfair but I forgave them, and the burden vanished. Still got a long list to go.

Been tired of being so masculine and all. You know why I am so rough? A defense mechanism. I feel so ashamed being feminine cause people keep saying I am ugly, and that I am fat, and that they abused me. So what if I am fat? I am not ugly, cause I have a heart and I do takecare of my skin as well. I hope that those who had cursed me accept themselves, cause they only hate what they hate about themselves.

I still like cursing though. Hehe.

Been missing you. Just wanna hold you close and just say that I love you very much. (This is to all DDM 1b01 lovelies) I want to just have fun with you guys, and get closer just for one day. I want to just get to know you, and listen to you people talk. I want to forget all the grudges and the pain I had and just cherish knowing that I knew all of you, even if its just for a while~

Listening to happy music, and avoiding all the sad ones for now. I am enjoying my sleep for once.

Chris's abuse towards Rihanna case. ISH. Damn it, just stay away from her. If you ever do it again, I hope your career is over. So what if you live in a domestic abuse household? It doesn't mean you should carry on that lifestyle! Whatever she has done to you, you absolutely have no right to even lay a hurtful finger on her.

I went to the bathroom one day, dunk my face into the pail of water, and I just scream. Scream for the pain I see, for the pain I feel, for the pain I hear, for the pain that had made me wiser. I just screamt and take a breath and scream till I feel out of anger. Didn't know I had so much anger & hurt inside, even for things that are like what? 10 years ago?

Now I see my past as a necessary way for me to be where I am now, stronger, and wiser.

I forgive you who belittled me,
who scarred me,
who betrayed me,
who abandoned me when I am in most dire need,
I forgive you who laughed at me,
who lied in my face just to be 'in',
I forgive you who punched me,
who cannot return my love for you,
who spit in my face,
who tried to control me,
I forgive you who talk about themselves 24/7,
who lost the ability to understand me,
who used me and then throw me away,
who only stared at my pain but unwilling to help,
who let me drown just to enjoy their own pain,

Ultimately, I forgive you
for hurting me for everything,
who had been so angry for everyone who had wronged you
and hurt everyone else who never did you any wrong
I forgive you, Siti Aisyah.

I understand you now.



Peace upon you.

I wish I had such a father. <3

Sypnosis

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?'

The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went on to complete the marathon together.

Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' to.

For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together.

This is a really touching video about a father's relationship and love for his son, and a reflection of God's relationship and love for us.

What goes in pink and hard, and then comes out, soft and squished? Bubblegum.

;)

I'm adjusting to Holidays. Feels lonely. Not going to put up a front here, I feel quite better as days pass by.

The first few days of holidays were a killer. I was so used to be surrounded by lots of people, and then sudden cut off, I felt deprived. It got so bad, I took a train and just went from marina bay and then back home for no logical reason.

Frankly, that train ride calmed me down. It was raining outside, and the motion of the train lulled me to sleep. Thankfully, the timing was perfect, and only little passengers were around. It was the most peaceful, longest train ride I ever had.

So, I tried to adjust and learn new stuff, watch videos, read books, exercised.

I feel much better and restored. I guess, I am learning to love being by myself. Not easy, but I am trying.

Job-wise, I am tired of finding. But I am still keep on going tho~ But I am getting discouraged.

Heard about Chris Brown beating up Rihanna. Whatever the reason is, to beat up someone is just stupid, waste time, and nothing good comes out of it. I hope they start all over again, and no more beatings this time.

Had a talk with one of my drama friends. And the reason I felt horrible in the past because I didn't let people close enough to know me well. She just said it simply, "They just don't know you that well." Somehow, I just don't believe it. Something's more is amiss.

Had a lot of dreams concerning 1b01. Some were extremely weird and funny. Others were just playback of past memories. I guess that's how my brain is coping. In one of them, the guys were just kissing each other. HAHA! Quite disturbing, but I guess, it did made one of my days.

Went to handover for Drama. Promoted to Treasurer. That's it.

Wow, my holidays are terrific!

:P Haha! I am feeling bitterhappy, put it that way~



Anyone knows interesting websites? Websites that contain disturbing facts, funny pictures, or super addictive games? Be nice and share it with me!

Feel sad now, about my studies. Didn't get it. It's going to be alright for me, but still, I could have done much better.

It's heartbreaking. Becomes moany myrtle. (Harry Potter Moany Ghost) Walks along the road, moaning at everyone as though they owe her a million bucks.

Nah. I am just exaggerating. Heh.

Anyway, I'm writing short stories, starting from today. My beautifully delayed dream being worked upon now! :) Yes, I do love writing stories, cause I am a dreamer.

And I was just thinking, you know.. If I were to die, I am most likely, going to be the corpse with the most outrageous clothing. Of course NOT my birthday suit, but I would request to wear some frilly gown before they bury me~ :D Hehe!

But still, I have to die with just my birthday suit. Omg. Why am I talking about my corpse?!

Okay, been looking around my friend's blogs. Some go overseas, some travel here and there, some just stuck at home (like me.. XP) and others sleep all the time. Some want to work, some want to just stone.

Woah, I guess my definition of holiday totally differ. I want a holiday that every day is no rest, just go out and party!

How about robbing bankS, get away with it, and spend most of it on building singing/acting institutions everywhere in the world, which focus on talent and uniqueness instead of sex symbols! Hollywood would have a run for their money!

Maybe pop up at MediaCorp and just delay the tv production episodes. Imagine, watching Red Thread / News on Channel 5? And some chubby chick with super bright clothes, walking around, and making funny faces at the camera, and then when the director comes in and ask me to go away.. I'll just pretend to not hear him. And shout my tag line, "COME AGAIN?" Then giggle like some bimbo, and sashay off~

Freaky.. (guffaws)

Experience new things, and just live life out to the max. Maybe hook up with some super hot guy and then dump him and break his heart. Or try to sneak into Britain illegally, and give Daniel Radcliffe a kiss, hypnotise him to marrying me, take a picture, spread all over the world with the headlines "Daniel engaged to an Asian girlfriend?" . XD ~ And the very two last day before school starts, sleep the whole day at the rooftop of a hotel with the most beautiful view of the ocean , so I can see the sunset and sunrise.

Then, I can safely say, I am mentally ready for school!

What can I say? I think I am the most happily mental human I've ever known. Which I am kinda proud of!

Wow, I love my blog. It's messy, super colourful and so me~

Finally.

:P Of course, thanks to electric for all the codes!

I feel weird these days. At times, I feel perfectly like a man. I feel very agressive, dominant, and am easily distracted by visuals. I want to fight and protect. And other manly stuff which I rather not say.

It's crazy.


And at other times, I feel perfectly like a woman. I feel very graceful, very serene, and filled up with pure love. I see a lot of beauty in the people and things around me and I tend to be more affectionate. I will like play dress up and etc.

I am usually in the middle.

I think it must be my irregular hours of sleep, and that 1 big cup of ice-cream I kept eating.


Well, today, I am going to have another drama meeting, which I hope will keep getting more fun! And I can't wait for tomorrow! Going to the east coast park with my drama lovelies! :D So happy, been years since I have been there again. Okay, maybe just a few months, but hey, it does feel that long! I could feel the wind, the rush of the water, the dew on my skin and.. those birds, they will sing again in my ears! Reminds me of the sunrise with 1a01. :)




Found a new game called Combat Arms! It's like counter-strike with a touch of halo! Seriously. It's a nice first-person shooter game, and most of all , its free! Totally free. The only drawback is that there are players in there who cheats in the game through hacking. I guess, their shooting skills sucks.




And another game called Left 4 Dead. Awesome zombie game! URGH! But I have to buy the cd for sixty bucks.. Aiyah, those who have please tag? Then, maybe.. I can ... 'steal'.. Haha! This game is best played in advanced mode, and its not for the faint hearted!

Read a book about how living in denial, delusion and blame destroys our lives. Its super hard to detect. But you can always ask yourselve, am I blaming anyone or myself or something else? Is the situation really what it is? And what essential truth did I refused to accept? It's not easy to detect, and living in denial is the start of all problems.

Just went Karaoke @ Mob with Xiang Ting! XDDD Even the auntie also be more friendly to us. Thought of inviting the Uncle along to sing with us~ All the emo song all come out like Wo Men De Ai/ My Heart Will Go On/ Burn /Boyfriend (5566) / In The End and I feel comfortable now, just screaming my voice out, whether it sounds good or not. Which turns out, NOT. XDD Getting better at improving my self-confidence!

& there is this diploma-plus called Phlebotomy . I didn't know what it meant and I asked XT. She said, its the study of dissecting frogs. It's even a highly wanted job. I choked on my coffee.

Just joking ah, if you people feel like I offended SP. :)

Had Dreamweaver workshop yesterday! It really does feel like a mini class reunion! Saw Cheeryl, Jun Ho & Xiang Ting! And some 1b02 people~ It was a delightful gathering, and I did learnt important things that I might not get the chance to learn in school. Like AJAX language and shortcuts to using dreamweaver. The teacher was superb. The pace of the lesson was just right, and not too fast and I'll be lost or too slow which can make me be very bored. The teacher was persistently friendly, even though the initial response was pretty lukewarm. The students didn't really open up until about afternoon time, 1pm+. That's the time where everyone starts loosening up, had fun and learnt more new things!

More to update, but let me drink that coffee I just choked on.

Wow. My ability to cope is getting better! All I need to do is just reach out to those near to me, and I am in friends' company! I am even enjoying my time with my family! Things certainly are looking up!

I am getting better liking my time alone. It's not always that I get time to just be alone, and be present here and now, without any worries, without anyone calling or texting me. It's total solitude that keeps my mind fresh. I never got this kind of silence before.

I faced some of my fears, debunk the denials I had, and try to spot other denials that I have in my life.

My voice getting better in terms of power, and I can hear my off tune notes even better. :D Improving on that, and will be going higher up the scale !

Read up on the news about the man who raped his own daughter, causing her to father a lot of his children. URGH. He just pleaded guilty to all charges and just said 'I'm sorry'. I hope some rabid dog loves you and fucks you 20 times per day.Maybe by some glitch, he gets pregnant and delivers 20 dog babies. Then the dog just says "Woof Woof = I'm sorry'. Fucker.

Moving on from that disturbing note...

I did a lot of things in my holiday to-do list. I can't believe it! It feels wonderful right now to actually able to be at this level of happiness. Of course, with all the happy times, I've cut down on my exercise.. And I am more cute now. XDDD

Okay, I know. More exercise.

Watched Race to Witch Mountain! Thanks Shin Puay for the review! I loved it! With all it's clicheness, and a bit of dejavu of Spy Kids, I loved it! Especially when the super hot The Rock is starring in it. I can't deny it, I have the hots for him. :P Besides, the movie rekindled my passion for technology and knowledge. Borrowed 4 books after watching that movie!

Its about this taxi driver, who got out of jail after working for some crime boss. He tries to be a clean slate, by working as a taxi driver. However, aliens that crashed on Earth recently, needs his help as they chanced upon him. They need his services to race for time, to save their planet and Earth from an impending war between the planets. He , on the other hand, doesn't believe they are aliens. And that he might just get back to jail if he were to help th

The aliens have cool powers man! Like moving objects with mind, re-arranging the body's molecules and etc. Not going to spoil you! ;)

I think I just got a job in SP! Ohmy, its going to be wonderful! I don't know, maybe I will have trouble coping. I am going to try anyway~

I love Cecilia Ahern. She is the first clean romantic book that held my attention. :D

Its about two best friends who grow up together, Alex & Rosie, and ended up falling for each other. They are perfect for each other but somehow they just can't get things to go their way to be together. They grow up, separated despite writing letters to each other for 25+ years. Everyone else can see that they love each other, but they can't. They just deny it. Read on, to see how they try to get back through their denials and obstacles to be together as they were when they were five.

So much to update, and I feel ... like procastinating. hehe!

I hope you guys enjoy your holidays! Make the best of it, cause year 2 is going to be one hell of a ride!

THANKS TO CHEERYL. SHE MADE MY DAY TODAY!!!

Omg. I saw some of my classmates today.

All the feelings rushed back! Imagine feeling the strongest lust you've ever felt, and then add in the most warmest, softest, soothing love you've ever felt.

It's like having fantasys while being asleep in your warm, secure lover's arms. It feels like that!

Okay, nvm,. LOL.

Wahhhh.. SO UNFAIR. I WAS ABOUT TO ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS ...


:(


At least it shows how much I love them. Haha!

Been happier these days! :) Cause I am controlling my negative thoughts, and forgiving those who had hurt me badly. Not easy, because it seems unfair but I forgave them, and the burden vanished. Still got a long list to go.

Been tired of being so masculine and all. You know why I am so rough? A defense mechanism. I feel so ashamed being feminine cause people keep saying I am ugly, and that I am fat, and that they abused me. So what if I am fat? I am not ugly, cause I have a heart and I do takecare of my skin as well. I hope that those who had cursed me accept themselves, cause they only hate what they hate about themselves.

I still like cursing though. Hehe.

Been missing you. Just wanna hold you close and just say that I love you very much. (This is to all DDM 1b01 lovelies) I want to just have fun with you guys, and get closer just for one day. I want to just get to know you, and listen to you people talk. I want to forget all the grudges and the pain I had and just cherish knowing that I knew all of you, even if its just for a while~

Listening to happy music, and avoiding all the sad ones for now. I am enjoying my sleep for once.

Chris's abuse towards Rihanna case. ISH. Damn it, just stay away from her. If you ever do it again, I hope your career is over. So what if you live in a domestic abuse household? It doesn't mean you should carry on that lifestyle! Whatever she has done to you, you absolutely have no right to even lay a hurtful finger on her.

I went to the bathroom one day, dunk my face into the pail of water, and I just scream. Scream for the pain I see, for the pain I feel, for the pain I hear, for the pain that had made me wiser. I just screamt and take a breath and scream till I feel out of anger. Didn't know I had so much anger & hurt inside, even for things that are like what? 10 years ago?

Now I see my past as a necessary way for me to be where I am now, stronger, and wiser.

I forgive you who belittled me,
who scarred me,
who betrayed me,
who abandoned me when I am in most dire need,
I forgive you who laughed at me,
who lied in my face just to be 'in',
I forgive you who punched me,
who cannot return my love for you,
who spit in my face,
who tried to control me,
I forgive you who talk about themselves 24/7,
who lost the ability to understand me,
who used me and then throw me away,
who only stared at my pain but unwilling to help,
who let me drown just to enjoy their own pain,

Ultimately, I forgive you
for hurting me for everything,
who had been so angry for everyone who had wronged you
and hurt everyone else who never did you any wrong
I forgive you, Siti Aisyah.

I understand you now.



Peace upon you.

I wish I had such a father. <3

Sypnosis

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?'

The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went on to complete the marathon together.

Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' to.

For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together.

This is a really touching video about a father's relationship and love for his son, and a reflection of God's relationship and love for us.

What goes in pink and hard, and then comes out, soft and squished? Bubblegum.

;)

I'm adjusting to Holidays. Feels lonely. Not going to put up a front here, I feel quite better as days pass by.

The first few days of holidays were a killer. I was so used to be surrounded by lots of people, and then sudden cut off, I felt deprived. It got so bad, I took a train and just went from marina bay and then back home for no logical reason.

Frankly, that train ride calmed me down. It was raining outside, and the motion of the train lulled me to sleep. Thankfully, the timing was perfect, and only little passengers were around. It was the most peaceful, longest train ride I ever had.

So, I tried to adjust and learn new stuff, watch videos, read books, exercised.

I feel much better and restored. I guess, I am learning to love being by myself. Not easy, but I am trying.

Job-wise, I am tired of finding. But I am still keep on going tho~ But I am getting discouraged.

Heard about Chris Brown beating up Rihanna. Whatever the reason is, to beat up someone is just stupid, waste time, and nothing good comes out of it. I hope they start all over again, and no more beatings this time.

Had a talk with one of my drama friends. And the reason I felt horrible in the past because I didn't let people close enough to know me well. She just said it simply, "They just don't know you that well." Somehow, I just don't believe it. Something's more is amiss.

Had a lot of dreams concerning 1b01. Some were extremely weird and funny. Others were just playback of past memories. I guess that's how my brain is coping. In one of them, the guys were just kissing each other. HAHA! Quite disturbing, but I guess, it did made one of my days.

Went to handover for Drama. Promoted to Treasurer. That's it.

Wow, my holidays are terrific!

:P Haha! I am feeling bitterhappy, put it that way~



Anyone knows interesting websites? Websites that contain disturbing facts, funny pictures, or super addictive games? Be nice and share it with me!