Mama please stop cryin' I can't stand the sound Your pain is painful and it's Tearing me down
I hear glasses breakin' As I sit up in my bed I told dad you didn't mean Those nasty things you said You fight about money 'Bout me and my brother And this I come home to This is my shelter
It ain't easy, growin' up in world war 3 Never knowin' what love could be You'll see, I don't want love to destroy me Like it has done my family
Can we work it out (Can we) Can we be a family (Can we) I promise I'll be better (I promise) Mommy I'll do anything (I'll do anything) Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I'll be better Daddy please don't leave
Daddy please stop yelling (stop) I can't stand the sound (can't stand the sound) Make mama stop cryin' 'Cause I need you around (yeah yeah yeah) My mama she loves you (I know it) No matter what she says is true I know that she hurts you But remember I love you too!
I ran away today, ran from the noise Ran away (ran away) Don't wanna go back to that place But don't have no choice, no way
In our family portrait (In our family portrait) We look pretty happy (We look pretty happy) Let's play pretend, let's act like it Comes naturally I don't wanna have to split the holidays (no no) I don't want two addresses (no no) I don't want a stepbrother anyway And I don't want my mom to have to change her last name!
In our family portrait We look pretty happy We look pretty normal Lets go back to that In our family portrait We look pretty happy Lets play pretend, act like it Goes naturally
In our family portrait (Can we work it out) We look pretty happy (Can we be a family) We look pretty normal (I promise I'll be better) Lets go back to that (Mommy I'll do anything) In our family portrait (Can we work it out) We look pretty happy (Can we be a family) Lets play pretend (I promise I'll be better) Act like it goes naturally, (Daddy please don't leave) Oh lets go back Oh lets go back
Remember that the night you left You took my shining star Daddy don't leave... Daddy don't leave... Daddy don't leave...
Mama'll be nicer I'll be so much better I'll tell my brother I won't spill the milk at dinner I'll be so much better I'll do everything right I'll be your little girl forever I'll go to sleep at night
I've been alone with you inside my mind And in my dreams I've kissed your lips, a thousand times I sometimes see you pass outside my door Hello, is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes I can see it in your smile You're all I've ever wanted My arms are open wide Cos you know just what to say And you know just what to do And I want to tell you so much, I love you
I long to see the sunlight in your hair And tell you time and time again, how much I care Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow Hello? I've just got to let you know Cos I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely Or is someone loving you Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying, I love you
Hello Is it me You're looking for? Cos I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely Is someone loving you? Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying I love you
A mental patient (Jeremy Sisto) affected by a multiple personality disorder, is about to undertake an evaluation test. And his doctor wants to ask him a couple of questions.
Met someone really cute yesterday!! But I just kinda adore him, not like or anything. Anyway, I went to the library and borrowed books about logos and t-shirt. I AM AMAZED! The vast types of logos, that I do not even know existed!
I realize I really love designing! Oh god. I just don't like Java only, so tedious. But for the designing part, I don't mind toiling away day and night designing something! YAYYY! I love singing and designing! SD-G LOVE.
Xiang Ting tried to give name me an English name.. LOL~! I was even trialed to be named as TOILET. Kns... XDDDD
My OC essay got high marks for such a heavy topic! Hey, what kind of heavy topic that I don't mind talking about all day? ... Pornography! WHEEE. But of course, I talked about the negative effects of pornography, not the 'Pornography is awesome' essay! While researching for that essay, I was very disturbed with my findings. Ted Bundy. Go and research him. I feel so disturbed and traumatised just thinking about him. Pedophilia.
I love love love what? Going crazy with close friends!
Strangers sometimes are party poopers. BLUEK. Go fuck off and stay cooped up in your bloody boring lifestyle. KNN.
I don't know why I typed the previous paragraph. I am HIGH.
Don't make me go hungry again. I can smell you so close to me, burned into my mind..
I've made up my mind, Don't need to think it over, If I'm wrong I am right, Don't need to look no further, This ain't lust, I know this is love but,
If I tell the world, I'll never say enough, Cause it was not said to you, And that's exactly what I need to do, If I'm in love with you,
Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, Or would it be a waste? Even If I knew my place should I leave it there? Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere
I'd build myself up, And fly around in circles, Waiting as my heart drops, And my back begins to tingle Finally could this be it?
When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet But I would never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue I'd go crawling down the avenue There's nothing that I wouldn't do To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea And on the highway of regret The winds of change are blowing wild and free You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true Nothing that I wouldn't do Go to the ends of the earth for you To make you feel my love
Go and have a listen to Parking Lot Pimp - 'Blow ' song!
It's the last song in my playlist, just recently added! Awesome music, disco, pop, rnb ! Have a listen, its a super hyper music!
I cannot believe that its a Singapore band! Such a strong music! WOWOWWOWOW.
But its so hard to find the lyrics! DAMN IT.
And Jason Mraz's Concert BEST SEATS sold OUT ALREADY! Within just 4 to 5 days!! And the concert is only on 5th of March ! Only side seats are available Go and check yourself~.
WHAT THE FUCKKK.. Nvm, its expensive anyway. I'm a sour grape. XDDDD
:P
Anyway, I found a funny dictionary about the Malay terms of Mat and Minahs! Read it, hilarious!
MAT & MINAH DICTIONARY (:
Gua[goo-wah] noun – What some mats and minahs use to call themselves. Similar in using “lu” when referring to others. A legacy that dates back to the times of Mat Rocks back in the early 80s.
A common trick that can be played on Mats is to ask them to translate the English phrase “Monkey Cave” into Malay. The mat will then say “Gua Monyet” (I'm a monkey).
Mat [mat] noun – To the rest of the world, the word simply means a Malay guy. But within the Malay community itself there is a growing disparity in consensus to its actual meaning. Popularly, it's used to denote a guy who converses primarily in Malay, as opposed to the more “English speaking” types. Favourites of the mats include tapered jeans, trucker caps and weepy Malay songs with sickeningly suicidal lyrics.
Matrep[mat-rape] noun – An extreme version of the mat. In addition to the usual mat accessories, a matrep will also come adorned with tattoos and matching body-piercings in weird corners of his body.
Minah[mee-nah] noun – An expression used to denote a Malay female. Derived from the popular Malay name, Aminah, which used to be all the rage some time ago. It was sort of the “in-thing” to name your daughter Aminah back in the 60s and 70s. In fact, legend has it that if you go to Geylang Serai market and shout “Hai Minah!” at least a quarter of the makcik population there is going to turn around and smile at you.
Picit [pee-chet] adjective – When a mat tells you to “picit” him, it does not mean that he is trying to be cheeky (or gay, if he is talking to a fellow mat). It simply means that the mat wants you to call him on his mobile. What were you thinking?
Relaksuah[ree-lek-soo-wah] adjective – Official slogan and life motto of the mats and minahs.
Sial [see- yal] noun / adjective – A full stop in every mat's sentence. Eg: “Tadi aku nampak accident sial Rabak sial Aku tak bedek sial Kesian sial” Translation: Just now I saw an accident (full stop) It was bad (full stop) I'm not kidding (full stop) Poor guy (full stop)
In its purest form, “sial” means “jinx” but mats have refined the art of using the word to include it at the end of their every sentence. Also comes in the more polite form “siak” and “siul” for those who do not want to sound too crude.
Skank [s-kank] adjective - A favourite weird-looking dance performed by mats and minahs. Usually done at any of the various gigs that mats and minahs love to congregate at. At times, you do detect evidence of artistry in the dance but most of the time they just look like they've been possessed by the ghost of a restless retard.
Sowie[soh-wee] adjective – An expression of apology used by minahs. Commonly used in SMS and instant messaging. Actually they can just use the word “sorry” like every normal human being but minahs think that it will make them sound extra cute to deliberately talk that way. Example : “I will be late. Sowie!”
Step [se-tep] adjective – To beguile, dissimulate or impersonate something or someone that they are not. Also commonly used to describe a fellow mat or minah who acts in an arrogant manner. E.g.“Kau jangan nak step tak tahu eh?” Translation: Don't you dare feign innocence in this matter. Can also be used as a gerund e.g. “stepping”. See next entry.
Step Jambu[se-tep jam-boo] adjective - What minahs do when they are sitting alone in a train and a group of mats walk in. It is a general exercise where the minah “controls” her facial muscles and posture in a way that would make her look her best. This would usually involve looking incessantly at her handphone for no particular reason.
Stoppit[setop-eet] adjective – A general expression of intolerance and dismay. When a minah uses this phrase, be very careful for it signals that she is about to lose her cool or get very violent.
Usually directed by minahs in an annoyed manner, followed by the postfix “seh”, “siak” or “sial”. (See entry for “sial” above) Eg: Apasal ngan perangai kau hari ni? Stopitsiak! Transalation : What's up with your attitude today? Enough of it already for goodness' sake!”
Haha! What were you thinking? I don't know why, One-Piece is the most exciting, funny, strong and damn annoying guy I've ever know, in my virtual life!
ONE PIECE Rocks! And the enemies are fucking ugly, just the way I like them! HAHA!
Way to go, creator of One-piece! You now have a new Anime fan!
ME! (ex-detester of Anime)
XDDDDDD
OMGOD. So many assignments!! *Screams up and down, and jumps through the window and flies back to home* DAMN! I've got to like rush everything! My expectations, plus deadline = panic attack! Never mind, One-Piece can do it! I can too!
Smitten with you, again. DAMN. You're my strongest drug at the moment. And I hope, you won't misuse that power.
Today, I really had the best time talking about SICK stuff, again!! I was so happy man, and still am, cause today is the day I talk about sick stuff 2x the usual amount. HEHEHEHE! I still go and count how much amount... I am pretty much satisfied. :P
Learnt the super basics of dancing from Ethel. I cannot isolate my body parts!! I think I will most likely have to go through a lot of training, or just use some random ropes and tie parts of myself to a wall or sth. HMMM..
And I don't know why, but as I am typing this, my body's burning up till I can feel the air around me heating up as well. Omygosh.
Suppose to be going for Zoom III, canceled because of other priorities. XDDD Nothing much to say actually, just that I REALLY VERY HAPPY today. If you understand, then keep to yourself okay!
I am so tired now. BUT I STILL WANA GO HIGH. How? Anyone want to 'play' with me?
Okay, don't get your hopes up. I will 'just' sleep. :PPPP
Nicola is sitting on a bench reading a book* when she is approached by Sam, an intrusive boy who strikes up an unusual and intimate conversation with her. Inspired by Miranda July's "Me and You and Everyone We Know" and filmed one freezing October morning, the film identifies Nicola and Sams mutual feelings of lonliness and isolation, which partly stems from being part of a generation that would rather communicate through the internet than in person.
OMG. I don't know how I am being so high and happy for one whole week already!! Usually there are up and down. If my PMS is changing into happy mode, I think I am the luckiest girl on Earth!
AHHHHH! I think God is giving me a new talent~ To have BIG O's all the time. XDDDDD
I feel so romantic listening to Enrique / Ring My Bells. Give it a listen from my playlist! :)
Suppose to be doing homework, but I am blogging! XDD Aiyah, only a while.. Won't hurt!
Anyway, I realize my strength to bounce back to happiness has been beyond what I could have imagined. It was just a while ago that I had a fight, and after that, instead of being sad and crying into sleep like I always do, my heart says 'I'm just glad we are still alive." I cried happy tears when I heard that voice, cause finally it's like I can be happy anytime I want.
I am suppose to be happy. And I am.
Imagine, losing someone , and you feel empty. Now, Imagine another situation where after losing someone, you cry and then your heart is able to let go, and feel warmth of love again.
I am beginning to respect myself now.
We all should let go of pain, of rejection, of guilt, of the belief that we are unworthy. We should all let go of the normal I-should-feel-this-way-for-this-situation kind. If you sad, cry. If you're happy, smile. Afterall, who set the rule to when be happy or not? To have something, then we can be happy?
We can be happy right now. We can. But we need to let go and forgive ourselves. The past is over. Our present is ours, and only ours to make.
To love someone is to acknowledge the goodness of who they are. Through loving a person we awaken their awareness of their own innate goodness. It is as though they cannot know how worthy they are until they look into the mirror of our love and see themselves. --John Gray, Ph.D. WARNING: Super High Mode. Have a lot of EXCLAMATION MARKS PER SENTENCE.
I am actually pretty satisfied with my state of happiness. I notice, I become much more luckier with this state of mind. I feel happier, everything goes right. And I don't miss you love. <3>Waiting for XT & Phoebe, Cheeryl, Ethel and me waited at the entrance of DMIT building watching a host hosting a game. ... AND...
I actually sang in public today! For the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
The host played Torn by Natalie Imbruglia and I knew that song. The quickest to raise up the hand will get to win Ben&Jerry Coupon! So, I raised up my hand out of impulse and randomness. And she noticed me! Okay, so I thought , why not? Just a question right? So I sang the first line of the chorus, and they increased the offer. If I go and sing with the awesome singer on stage, I'll get two coupons. I was damn scared.. I only knew how to sing just yesterday, and I havent really practised well! But I go on, with the kick of Ethel and Cheeryl. I went up, sang the chorus with them. It went pretty well, my voice sounded pretty okay! And got my presents!
Woah, I tell you, my happy mind is really working! I won 2 Ben Jerry's coupon and free t-shirts for my friends! HEHE! I am like super happy man. I get to belanja my friends, and get Ben Jerry! Awwweeesoommee. The singing thing was suppose to be for the secondary students, to entertain them for the open house. But I go become extra and steal those!
Met Ethel's senior! Haha~ I made Ethel very happy today. :P
Open house and we got a free ride with the shuttle bus! Save energy. I was quite scared for Cheeryl's shoulder, it looks painful for her. So, today great day to take shuttle bus! Went up the earthquake simulator with Ethel! The tremors were actually soothing! Like having a butt massage. HAHA!!! We were lucky cause when Xiang Ting and Phoebe went up, the simulator's power got cut off! Aww.. Their butts never got any massage~ XDD
Drama, I played with the costumes. I heard I am going to be DRAMA's CCA secretary. COOL! I can get more CCA points.
The only thing I regret is that I went up on stage, unknown by ( insert name here) . TOO BAD! XP <3>
OMYFGOD! I am so happy now!! It's like the first time feeling of falling in love with someone who loves you back!
You know why? Cause I know how to make myself sing properly!! OMYGOD! After all these years, only today I realized how everything clicks! My throat so damn relax, and I can hit high notes easily from a low note! I need to train to relax my throat, cause I keep straining it, the wrong way. The voice sounds funny, cause I have never sing in a relax way, so must practice my diction and my pitch.
And I realized I should focus on the things I have! I focus on my status of being single that it hurt me, blinded me to not know that I have much more things more worthy than boyfriend. I have family. I have a well kept house. I have money. I have God to believe in. I have close friends, trustworthy ones. I have friends that are male that I am quite close to. I have sanity. I have health and complete physical body. I have knowledge of mind. I HAVE PASSION! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS! I HAVE ABILITY TO SING NOW!
I am fucking wealthy I tell you. XD
I think I can safely say.."Desperation, FUCK OFF!" Haha. Sorry, I am so happy that now I become vulgar!
I think I am going to get orgasm if I go on like this. LOL. Okay okay, you might be disgusted now.
I am living a happy life. Thanks for your support, my beautiful psycho friends!
I want to be somebody. This course that I have isn't enough for me. I made a bad choice, even though it is still passable for me. All because of my mother's fear that I won't get a job. It has always been about her fear. All my achievements and success is all about her.
What about me?
What about my dreams? My goal to be someone bigger than myself? To be someone that lives a happy life living her dreams instead of condoning to others? Why is she so selfish.
Protect me, you say? Protect me from the jobs I might not get if I pursue my dream? What about wasted time that I go through each day, only imagining how it feels to be able to be on stage and move the audience with my own voice?
How old would I be when I realized everything wasn't worth it? How long will it take for me to wake up and look back, and see how I could have turned everything around?
I feel scared of whatever my mother to be true. But why am I so certain its even true? I have not even tried what my heart wanted.
Why does what I want don't seem to matter? Cause if realistic expectation is to downplay oneself, then I'd rather die.
You know, sometimes I wonder why people go for something so called useful, but have no hearts for. It's not useful in the first place, if your heart isn't asking for it!
Tell me, what is your deepest desire? If you knew you can never fail? And honestly tell me, are you living that life? And if not, do you feel scared at the thought of changing the idea of a normal life,to chase after the dream life?
It's not about questioning the questions that you question. It's about taking actions to life's underrated question : " Why not?" .
Some guys love girls. Some guys love guys, Some girls love girls. Some love those who are both girl and guy. Some love everyone. Some love animals. (Ewww..)
Me? I prefer neither. <3 I am what you may call, the genetic dead end. Human DNA ends with me.
I think this is just a phase. I might be falling for some dude someday, hopefully. Cause right now, I am too in love with myself.
Hey, at least I can have myself! I'll be there for myself 24/7.
LOL. Maybe I am just desperate, but am in denial. XDDDD
"I want to live the life I deserved. Pain of taking action is better than the pain of 'what if's' "
Its 7 o'clock now. And I am online playing facebook's pet society! Makes me all motherly inside. But in real life, I received sth cute~ I received a teddy bear for a belated present! First time in my life to ever receive teddy bear! Omygosh, deprived childhood right? :P
I totally loved Kanye's Heartless! I think he should be appreciated more. I hear a lot of people loving David Archuleta, The Script, but Kanye's music is awesome too! He is quite an unlucky man, he keep losing awards that he is nominated for. And when he was pissed, he is really pissed.
I wish that there is a device that can find anything I am having in mind. It receives my brain's signal and pin points where it is, like a smart ass compass! But of course, bad news for criminals lah~
I WANT IDEAS FOR ASS-IGNMENTS. My head's spinning with the complexity of the ideas that spawned in my head. Life is so ironic. My brain have difficulty simplyfing things. Except of course of my basic needs, like eating. FOOD! Easy.
My method to blog happy stuff makes me happy! I shall continue~
DVDE EPICA! Jun Ho's portrait had a BLOODY LONG tongue seh!! (what can he use that for? hmmm..) And Cheeryls one was super cute!! She was like a half-human, half-cat! Very pretty stuff! I wanted to see the rest, but cannot, cause I seating too in front!
I am trying out for drama commitee! Hopefully, I am able to get in and push it to greater heights. More CCA points too! This is the first time I ever tried out for something so big, such as vice-president. I don't know, I might get secretary? I want to have more glamour can? XDDDD More people keep saying I'm very funny. I must go develop my talent already~ XP
But of course, I do have a serious, intelligent side. People only see the crazy gurl who is horny 24/7 . I just like to be a fool and play around more. I want to make happy memories and laugh until my lungs hurt. It's so much louder and frees me up~ And besides, sex is like a universal language~ Anyone understands what it means. Unless if you are ... below the age of 8.
You know if I had my way, I would want to talk about metaphysical stuff. About the Law of Attraction, Law Of Inconsistency and etc. Heavy stuff , like religion..Feminism aren't really for females and etc. What do you think your purpose of life is? About your vibrational state with the world. You don't understand what these are right?
I don't like people who thinks talking about sex is disgusting, disgraceful. I mean if you mean no harm, nothing wrong right? Its like they reject the part of them that is a sexual being. Everyone is, that's the point of dressing nicely so that one looks appealing. Okay, maybe thats my bullshit.
My Facebook pet is getting popular!! CUTE lovely. Besides, I've made friends JUST for pet society! Woah, I am totally addicted !
Had the best part of the day with my drama peeps! Super funny they all! My clique talked about the scars we have in life, and after hearing those stories, we laughed at how clumsy we all are! One of them even said she loves scars! Same taste as angelina jolie! LOL. I prefer no scars, thank you.
Did you know I actually accidentally stapled my right index finger? Did you know I was cutting vegetables, and almost cut my left index finger more than half? The scars are still there after 3 years. ><" And, my knee got punctured by the escalator while playing hide and seek in the mall? Crazy stuff.. Many more injuries lah, but better not say anymore. Gross!
I don't know what else to say. PONYO PONYO PONYO! Wanna watch? :D
I try to post more happy entries, and things that can benefit you my dear reader! Give me feedback!
Emotional Stuff. Please read other post if you are not willing to swallow melodramatic stuff. And respect my feelings, thanks.
I'm fighting so hard not to cry. So many other guys, I need time to get over you. I'm fighting so hard to not give in and break down. Its so much easier to fall into pieces. There are other girls falling for you too, but I keep my lips sealed. My hearts on the line, and if you could see me through, you would know I would let you go if you never see me more than just friends. But that doesn't mean I stop caring.
Some told me not to fight the feeling. I know one day you will just be another crush if I just let it die. But for now, I am trying to enjoy my moments with you, as just friends. It hurts but its so much better than not talking to you.
At least, I can remember your voice so I can sleep at night instead of crying over what could have been.
If I had the courage, I would want to tell you how I felt. I won't expect anything from you, just want you to know, so that I don't have to hide anymore. But then, can you accept it? More likely than not, you'll withdraw away.
Then again, I got the vibe you're treating me as your little sister.
So much pain just for your friendship. I'm wondering when will this pain be over, so I can be happy just how we are.
And when you read this, do you even know if its you?
I'm sick of this emotional shit. A simple friendship complicated by unrequited feelings. Many are suffering from this situation. It will be nice that for once, the person I adore returns the same feeling.
People asking me when will I get a boyfriend. Should I even jump into that bandwagon? I don't think I am ready when my heart's with someone else. I'd rather be alone than be in a relationship that doesn't serve its purpose.
Thanks for reading. :) Just support me as a friend, I'll get over this.
If you do like me, whoever you are, don't keep quiet. Come forward and tell me. I don't mind, even if you annoy the shit out of me. I'll tell you if I return the feelings and if not, you can wish either to still be friends or not.
I understand how it feels. And I want to be the nice adored one.
Okay, there's a been a lot of friendship problems going around me. Not me, but around me. Mostly because they don't dare to address the issues. Either it is a case of fear, or it is a case of no one's listening.
So, I will like to request you,my friend, reader whatever..
If you have any issues with me, personal or otherwise, do tell me in the face, or just post small notes if you don't dare. But do tell me, just try to be specific, but nice. Feedback, not give insulting comments. Please do that. Tell me how it affects you.
I need someone to tell me if I do something wrong, when I don't realise what's going on.
I'll see where I can compromise with you, or do what you've wanted.
Cause small things can build up, and they don't fade fast enough.
I love this skin!! So beautiful! And all the glassy effect for the background! I wanted something different from my usual fantasy/emo style. LOOK WHAT I FOUND! FUN, Cuteness with sprinkles of classyness.
Xiang Ting, my style of cute is prettier! Hehe!
Xav is my all-time favourite designer. All her designs are gorgeous. The whole thing is done by Adobe Illustrator! EE! I hate that software, its takes me a long time to do the tracings. But I love how it turns out at the end.
My father presented me a 400 Gig Hard-disk!! For my brother...a PSP SLIM! ZOMG. Now, I am loving wrestling games even more.
I love my birthday date. Cause I can celebrate Christmas, My Birthday, New Year celebration and My Brother's Birthday! Woah, a totally celebration fest! Anymore, I am going to get sick of cakes! :P
So excited about Drama again! The Gems production and My CCA. The Gems production, I am suppose to be one of the cruel stepsisters for Cinderella. The twist is , it is a comedy. So I can be the bimbotic, bitch who thinks she is the best sexiest thing ever happened. Not like I am not one...
The costumes are diverse! From Chinese man, rags to prom dresses and gowns. Even have fairy wings! The props are fantastic! The wigs, and tons of jewellery. Sofa's, swords (real -looking ones) plants and so many others. If the jewellery is fake, I can't even tell! I have to wear those disco, glitter short skirt. OMG. Never mind, I can feel how its like to be a 'streetwalker' for once. Streetwalker = sexy slut. I don't know if I need to wear make-up. I bet they want to make me look damn weird with the make-up. Evil people.
Before going home, the drama people went nuts. The guys took a umbrella handle cover.. which looks like a transparent perky dick.. Took two balls and plus the umbrella handle cover, and they attach it .. "THERE". The drama teacher saw them. and she shook her head, resigned. LOL. We must have been one bunch of horny monkeys.
I hope next time, the drama cca becomes a bigger production and can perform for bigger audiences. Simone and Wendy are the best teachers I can ever have! Wendy is the only teacher who said feeling afraid is good!
I have not even improve my WebP and etc. Been catching up with my secondary school friends. What a blast!! Yu han, she still rocks like ever.
In this time of New Year, I have noticed I have created a habit of uplifiting myself whenever I am down instead of staying sad. It's pretty neat trick! Just watch funny videos, read books about things you've never knew before that can enlighten you, and have a good laugh with friends. SUPERB MEDICINE.
And I don't know. I kind of feel free to express to someone.. "I LOVE YOU. I don't expect you to have the same feelings, but I want you to know, I care. And support you all the way. Best friend. Even in one-sided story~" It relieves a lot of weight in my chest. For now, I think the person should remain anonymous, to protect his identity. LOLS!
The only way to be happy is to be vulnerable, and know your resources. -The Power Play
Do you even want to be vulnerable to others? Most probably, your answer is no. But that is how we can ever get close to anyone. And happiest. Of course if the other abuses you, its time to get out.
I still don't dare to open up. My ego can't handle it. But its getting weaker, :D
Mama please stop cryin' I can't stand the sound Your pain is painful and it's Tearing me down
I hear glasses breakin' As I sit up in my bed I told dad you didn't mean Those nasty things you said You fight about money 'Bout me and my brother And this I come home to This is my shelter
It ain't easy, growin' up in world war 3 Never knowin' what love could be You'll see, I don't want love to destroy me Like it has done my family
Can we work it out (Can we) Can we be a family (Can we) I promise I'll be better (I promise) Mommy I'll do anything (I'll do anything) Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I'll be better Daddy please don't leave
Daddy please stop yelling (stop) I can't stand the sound (can't stand the sound) Make mama stop cryin' 'Cause I need you around (yeah yeah yeah) My mama she loves you (I know it) No matter what she says is true I know that she hurts you But remember I love you too!
I ran away today, ran from the noise Ran away (ran away) Don't wanna go back to that place But don't have no choice, no way
In our family portrait (In our family portrait) We look pretty happy (We look pretty happy) Let's play pretend, let's act like it Comes naturally I don't wanna have to split the holidays (no no) I don't want two addresses (no no) I don't want a stepbrother anyway And I don't want my mom to have to change her last name!
In our family portrait We look pretty happy We look pretty normal Lets go back to that In our family portrait We look pretty happy Lets play pretend, act like it Goes naturally
In our family portrait (Can we work it out) We look pretty happy (Can we be a family) We look pretty normal (I promise I'll be better) Lets go back to that (Mommy I'll do anything) In our family portrait (Can we work it out) We look pretty happy (Can we be a family) Lets play pretend (I promise I'll be better) Act like it goes naturally, (Daddy please don't leave) Oh lets go back Oh lets go back
Remember that the night you left You took my shining star Daddy don't leave... Daddy don't leave... Daddy don't leave...
Mama'll be nicer I'll be so much better I'll tell my brother I won't spill the milk at dinner I'll be so much better I'll do everything right I'll be your little girl forever I'll go to sleep at night
I've been alone with you inside my mind And in my dreams I've kissed your lips, a thousand times I sometimes see you pass outside my door Hello, is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes I can see it in your smile You're all I've ever wanted My arms are open wide Cos you know just what to say And you know just what to do And I want to tell you so much, I love you
I long to see the sunlight in your hair And tell you time and time again, how much I care Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow Hello? I've just got to let you know Cos I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely Or is someone loving you Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying, I love you
Hello Is it me You're looking for? Cos I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely Is someone loving you? Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying I love you
A mental patient (Jeremy Sisto) affected by a multiple personality disorder, is about to undertake an evaluation test. And his doctor wants to ask him a couple of questions.
Met someone really cute yesterday!! But I just kinda adore him, not like or anything. Anyway, I went to the library and borrowed books about logos and t-shirt. I AM AMAZED! The vast types of logos, that I do not even know existed!
I realize I really love designing! Oh god. I just don't like Java only, so tedious. But for the designing part, I don't mind toiling away day and night designing something! YAYYY! I love singing and designing! SD-G LOVE.
Xiang Ting tried to give name me an English name.. LOL~! I was even trialed to be named as TOILET. Kns... XDDDD
My OC essay got high marks for such a heavy topic! Hey, what kind of heavy topic that I don't mind talking about all day? ... Pornography! WHEEE. But of course, I talked about the negative effects of pornography, not the 'Pornography is awesome' essay! While researching for that essay, I was very disturbed with my findings. Ted Bundy. Go and research him. I feel so disturbed and traumatised just thinking about him. Pedophilia.
I love love love what? Going crazy with close friends!
Strangers sometimes are party poopers. BLUEK. Go fuck off and stay cooped up in your bloody boring lifestyle. KNN.
I don't know why I typed the previous paragraph. I am HIGH.
Don't make me go hungry again. I can smell you so close to me, burned into my mind..
I've made up my mind, Don't need to think it over, If I'm wrong I am right, Don't need to look no further, This ain't lust, I know this is love but,
If I tell the world, I'll never say enough, Cause it was not said to you, And that's exactly what I need to do, If I'm in love with you,
Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, Or would it be a waste? Even If I knew my place should I leave it there? Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere
I'd build myself up, And fly around in circles, Waiting as my heart drops, And my back begins to tingle Finally could this be it?
When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet But I would never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue I'd go crawling down the avenue There's nothing that I wouldn't do To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea And on the highway of regret The winds of change are blowing wild and free You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true Nothing that I wouldn't do Go to the ends of the earth for you To make you feel my love
Go and have a listen to Parking Lot Pimp - 'Blow ' song!
It's the last song in my playlist, just recently added! Awesome music, disco, pop, rnb ! Have a listen, its a super hyper music!
I cannot believe that its a Singapore band! Such a strong music! WOWOWWOWOW.
But its so hard to find the lyrics! DAMN IT.
And Jason Mraz's Concert BEST SEATS sold OUT ALREADY! Within just 4 to 5 days!! And the concert is only on 5th of March ! Only side seats are available Go and check yourself~.
WHAT THE FUCKKK.. Nvm, its expensive anyway. I'm a sour grape. XDDDD
:P
Anyway, I found a funny dictionary about the Malay terms of Mat and Minahs! Read it, hilarious!
MAT & MINAH DICTIONARY (:
Gua[goo-wah] noun – What some mats and minahs use to call themselves. Similar in using “lu” when referring to others. A legacy that dates back to the times of Mat Rocks back in the early 80s.
A common trick that can be played on Mats is to ask them to translate the English phrase “Monkey Cave” into Malay. The mat will then say “Gua Monyet” (I'm a monkey).
Mat [mat] noun – To the rest of the world, the word simply means a Malay guy. But within the Malay community itself there is a growing disparity in consensus to its actual meaning. Popularly, it's used to denote a guy who converses primarily in Malay, as opposed to the more “English speaking” types. Favourites of the mats include tapered jeans, trucker caps and weepy Malay songs with sickeningly suicidal lyrics.
Matrep[mat-rape] noun – An extreme version of the mat. In addition to the usual mat accessories, a matrep will also come adorned with tattoos and matching body-piercings in weird corners of his body.
Minah[mee-nah] noun – An expression used to denote a Malay female. Derived from the popular Malay name, Aminah, which used to be all the rage some time ago. It was sort of the “in-thing” to name your daughter Aminah back in the 60s and 70s. In fact, legend has it that if you go to Geylang Serai market and shout “Hai Minah!” at least a quarter of the makcik population there is going to turn around and smile at you.
Picit [pee-chet] adjective – When a mat tells you to “picit” him, it does not mean that he is trying to be cheeky (or gay, if he is talking to a fellow mat). It simply means that the mat wants you to call him on his mobile. What were you thinking?
Relaksuah[ree-lek-soo-wah] adjective – Official slogan and life motto of the mats and minahs.
Sial [see- yal] noun / adjective – A full stop in every mat's sentence. Eg: “Tadi aku nampak accident sial Rabak sial Aku tak bedek sial Kesian sial” Translation: Just now I saw an accident (full stop) It was bad (full stop) I'm not kidding (full stop) Poor guy (full stop)
In its purest form, “sial” means “jinx” but mats have refined the art of using the word to include it at the end of their every sentence. Also comes in the more polite form “siak” and “siul” for those who do not want to sound too crude.
Skank [s-kank] adjective - A favourite weird-looking dance performed by mats and minahs. Usually done at any of the various gigs that mats and minahs love to congregate at. At times, you do detect evidence of artistry in the dance but most of the time they just look like they've been possessed by the ghost of a restless retard.
Sowie[soh-wee] adjective – An expression of apology used by minahs. Commonly used in SMS and instant messaging. Actually they can just use the word “sorry” like every normal human being but minahs think that it will make them sound extra cute to deliberately talk that way. Example : “I will be late. Sowie!”
Step [se-tep] adjective – To beguile, dissimulate or impersonate something or someone that they are not. Also commonly used to describe a fellow mat or minah who acts in an arrogant manner. E.g.“Kau jangan nak step tak tahu eh?” Translation: Don't you dare feign innocence in this matter. Can also be used as a gerund e.g. “stepping”. See next entry.
Step Jambu[se-tep jam-boo] adjective - What minahs do when they are sitting alone in a train and a group of mats walk in. It is a general exercise where the minah “controls” her facial muscles and posture in a way that would make her look her best. This would usually involve looking incessantly at her handphone for no particular reason.
Stoppit[setop-eet] adjective – A general expression of intolerance and dismay. When a minah uses this phrase, be very careful for it signals that she is about to lose her cool or get very violent.
Usually directed by minahs in an annoyed manner, followed by the postfix “seh”, “siak” or “sial”. (See entry for “sial” above) Eg: Apasal ngan perangai kau hari ni? Stopitsiak! Transalation : What's up with your attitude today? Enough of it already for goodness' sake!”
Haha! What were you thinking? I don't know why, One-Piece is the most exciting, funny, strong and damn annoying guy I've ever know, in my virtual life!
ONE PIECE Rocks! And the enemies are fucking ugly, just the way I like them! HAHA!
Way to go, creator of One-piece! You now have a new Anime fan!
ME! (ex-detester of Anime)
XDDDDDD
OMGOD. So many assignments!! *Screams up and down, and jumps through the window and flies back to home* DAMN! I've got to like rush everything! My expectations, plus deadline = panic attack! Never mind, One-Piece can do it! I can too!
Smitten with you, again. DAMN. You're my strongest drug at the moment. And I hope, you won't misuse that power.
Today, I really had the best time talking about SICK stuff, again!! I was so happy man, and still am, cause today is the day I talk about sick stuff 2x the usual amount. HEHEHEHE! I still go and count how much amount... I am pretty much satisfied. :P
Learnt the super basics of dancing from Ethel. I cannot isolate my body parts!! I think I will most likely have to go through a lot of training, or just use some random ropes and tie parts of myself to a wall or sth. HMMM..
And I don't know why, but as I am typing this, my body's burning up till I can feel the air around me heating up as well. Omygosh.
Suppose to be going for Zoom III, canceled because of other priorities. XDDD Nothing much to say actually, just that I REALLY VERY HAPPY today. If you understand, then keep to yourself okay!
I am so tired now. BUT I STILL WANA GO HIGH. How? Anyone want to 'play' with me?
Okay, don't get your hopes up. I will 'just' sleep. :PPPP
Nicola is sitting on a bench reading a book* when she is approached by Sam, an intrusive boy who strikes up an unusual and intimate conversation with her. Inspired by Miranda July's "Me and You and Everyone We Know" and filmed one freezing October morning, the film identifies Nicola and Sams mutual feelings of lonliness and isolation, which partly stems from being part of a generation that would rather communicate through the internet than in person.
OMG. I don't know how I am being so high and happy for one whole week already!! Usually there are up and down. If my PMS is changing into happy mode, I think I am the luckiest girl on Earth!
AHHHHH! I think God is giving me a new talent~ To have BIG O's all the time. XDDDDD
I feel so romantic listening to Enrique / Ring My Bells. Give it a listen from my playlist! :)
Suppose to be doing homework, but I am blogging! XDD Aiyah, only a while.. Won't hurt!
Anyway, I realize my strength to bounce back to happiness has been beyond what I could have imagined. It was just a while ago that I had a fight, and after that, instead of being sad and crying into sleep like I always do, my heart says 'I'm just glad we are still alive." I cried happy tears when I heard that voice, cause finally it's like I can be happy anytime I want.
I am suppose to be happy. And I am.
Imagine, losing someone , and you feel empty. Now, Imagine another situation where after losing someone, you cry and then your heart is able to let go, and feel warmth of love again.
I am beginning to respect myself now.
We all should let go of pain, of rejection, of guilt, of the belief that we are unworthy. We should all let go of the normal I-should-feel-this-way-for-this-situation kind. If you sad, cry. If you're happy, smile. Afterall, who set the rule to when be happy or not? To have something, then we can be happy?
We can be happy right now. We can. But we need to let go and forgive ourselves. The past is over. Our present is ours, and only ours to make.
To love someone is to acknowledge the goodness of who they are. Through loving a person we awaken their awareness of their own innate goodness. It is as though they cannot know how worthy they are until they look into the mirror of our love and see themselves. --John Gray, Ph.D. WARNING: Super High Mode. Have a lot of EXCLAMATION MARKS PER SENTENCE.
I am actually pretty satisfied with my state of happiness. I notice, I become much more luckier with this state of mind. I feel happier, everything goes right. And I don't miss you love. <3>Waiting for XT & Phoebe, Cheeryl, Ethel and me waited at the entrance of DMIT building watching a host hosting a game. ... AND...
I actually sang in public today! For the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
The host played Torn by Natalie Imbruglia and I knew that song. The quickest to raise up the hand will get to win Ben&Jerry Coupon! So, I raised up my hand out of impulse and randomness. And she noticed me! Okay, so I thought , why not? Just a question right? So I sang the first line of the chorus, and they increased the offer. If I go and sing with the awesome singer on stage, I'll get two coupons. I was damn scared.. I only knew how to sing just yesterday, and I havent really practised well! But I go on, with the kick of Ethel and Cheeryl. I went up, sang the chorus with them. It went pretty well, my voice sounded pretty okay! And got my presents!
Woah, I tell you, my happy mind is really working! I won 2 Ben Jerry's coupon and free t-shirts for my friends! HEHE! I am like super happy man. I get to belanja my friends, and get Ben Jerry! Awwweeesoommee. The singing thing was suppose to be for the secondary students, to entertain them for the open house. But I go become extra and steal those!
Met Ethel's senior! Haha~ I made Ethel very happy today. :P
Open house and we got a free ride with the shuttle bus! Save energy. I was quite scared for Cheeryl's shoulder, it looks painful for her. So, today great day to take shuttle bus! Went up the earthquake simulator with Ethel! The tremors were actually soothing! Like having a butt massage. HAHA!!! We were lucky cause when Xiang Ting and Phoebe went up, the simulator's power got cut off! Aww.. Their butts never got any massage~ XDD
Drama, I played with the costumes. I heard I am going to be DRAMA's CCA secretary. COOL! I can get more CCA points.
The only thing I regret is that I went up on stage, unknown by ( insert name here) . TOO BAD! XP <3>
OMYFGOD! I am so happy now!! It's like the first time feeling of falling in love with someone who loves you back!
You know why? Cause I know how to make myself sing properly!! OMYGOD! After all these years, only today I realized how everything clicks! My throat so damn relax, and I can hit high notes easily from a low note! I need to train to relax my throat, cause I keep straining it, the wrong way. The voice sounds funny, cause I have never sing in a relax way, so must practice my diction and my pitch.
And I realized I should focus on the things I have! I focus on my status of being single that it hurt me, blinded me to not know that I have much more things more worthy than boyfriend. I have family. I have a well kept house. I have money. I have God to believe in. I have close friends, trustworthy ones. I have friends that are male that I am quite close to. I have sanity. I have health and complete physical body. I have knowledge of mind. I HAVE PASSION! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS! I HAVE ABILITY TO SING NOW!
I am fucking wealthy I tell you. XD
I think I can safely say.."Desperation, FUCK OFF!" Haha. Sorry, I am so happy that now I become vulgar!
I think I am going to get orgasm if I go on like this. LOL. Okay okay, you might be disgusted now.
I am living a happy life. Thanks for your support, my beautiful psycho friends!
I want to be somebody. This course that I have isn't enough for me. I made a bad choice, even though it is still passable for me. All because of my mother's fear that I won't get a job. It has always been about her fear. All my achievements and success is all about her.
What about me?
What about my dreams? My goal to be someone bigger than myself? To be someone that lives a happy life living her dreams instead of condoning to others? Why is she so selfish.
Protect me, you say? Protect me from the jobs I might not get if I pursue my dream? What about wasted time that I go through each day, only imagining how it feels to be able to be on stage and move the audience with my own voice?
How old would I be when I realized everything wasn't worth it? How long will it take for me to wake up and look back, and see how I could have turned everything around?
I feel scared of whatever my mother to be true. But why am I so certain its even true? I have not even tried what my heart wanted.
Why does what I want don't seem to matter? Cause if realistic expectation is to downplay oneself, then I'd rather die.
You know, sometimes I wonder why people go for something so called useful, but have no hearts for. It's not useful in the first place, if your heart isn't asking for it!
Tell me, what is your deepest desire? If you knew you can never fail? And honestly tell me, are you living that life? And if not, do you feel scared at the thought of changing the idea of a normal life,to chase after the dream life?
It's not about questioning the questions that you question. It's about taking actions to life's underrated question : " Why not?" .
Some guys love girls. Some guys love guys, Some girls love girls. Some love those who are both girl and guy. Some love everyone. Some love animals. (Ewww..)
Me? I prefer neither. <3 I am what you may call, the genetic dead end. Human DNA ends with me.
I think this is just a phase. I might be falling for some dude someday, hopefully. Cause right now, I am too in love with myself.
Hey, at least I can have myself! I'll be there for myself 24/7.
LOL. Maybe I am just desperate, but am in denial. XDDDD
"I want to live the life I deserved. Pain of taking action is better than the pain of 'what if's' "
Its 7 o'clock now. And I am online playing facebook's pet society! Makes me all motherly inside. But in real life, I received sth cute~ I received a teddy bear for a belated present! First time in my life to ever receive teddy bear! Omygosh, deprived childhood right? :P
I totally loved Kanye's Heartless! I think he should be appreciated more. I hear a lot of people loving David Archuleta, The Script, but Kanye's music is awesome too! He is quite an unlucky man, he keep losing awards that he is nominated for. And when he was pissed, he is really pissed.
I wish that there is a device that can find anything I am having in mind. It receives my brain's signal and pin points where it is, like a smart ass compass! But of course, bad news for criminals lah~
I WANT IDEAS FOR ASS-IGNMENTS. My head's spinning with the complexity of the ideas that spawned in my head. Life is so ironic. My brain have difficulty simplyfing things. Except of course of my basic needs, like eating. FOOD! Easy.
My method to blog happy stuff makes me happy! I shall continue~
DVDE EPICA! Jun Ho's portrait had a BLOODY LONG tongue seh!! (what can he use that for? hmmm..) And Cheeryls one was super cute!! She was like a half-human, half-cat! Very pretty stuff! I wanted to see the rest, but cannot, cause I seating too in front!
I am trying out for drama commitee! Hopefully, I am able to get in and push it to greater heights. More CCA points too! This is the first time I ever tried out for something so big, such as vice-president. I don't know, I might get secretary? I want to have more glamour can? XDDDD More people keep saying I'm very funny. I must go develop my talent already~ XP
But of course, I do have a serious, intelligent side. People only see the crazy gurl who is horny 24/7 . I just like to be a fool and play around more. I want to make happy memories and laugh until my lungs hurt. It's so much louder and frees me up~ And besides, sex is like a universal language~ Anyone understands what it means. Unless if you are ... below the age of 8.
You know if I had my way, I would want to talk about metaphysical stuff. About the Law of Attraction, Law Of Inconsistency and etc. Heavy stuff , like religion..Feminism aren't really for females and etc. What do you think your purpose of life is? About your vibrational state with the world. You don't understand what these are right?
I don't like people who thinks talking about sex is disgusting, disgraceful. I mean if you mean no harm, nothing wrong right? Its like they reject the part of them that is a sexual being. Everyone is, that's the point of dressing nicely so that one looks appealing. Okay, maybe thats my bullshit.
My Facebook pet is getting popular!! CUTE lovely. Besides, I've made friends JUST for pet society! Woah, I am totally addicted !
Had the best part of the day with my drama peeps! Super funny they all! My clique talked about the scars we have in life, and after hearing those stories, we laughed at how clumsy we all are! One of them even said she loves scars! Same taste as angelina jolie! LOL. I prefer no scars, thank you.
Did you know I actually accidentally stapled my right index finger? Did you know I was cutting vegetables, and almost cut my left index finger more than half? The scars are still there after 3 years. ><" And, my knee got punctured by the escalator while playing hide and seek in the mall? Crazy stuff.. Many more injuries lah, but better not say anymore. Gross!
I don't know what else to say. PONYO PONYO PONYO! Wanna watch? :D
I try to post more happy entries, and things that can benefit you my dear reader! Give me feedback!
Emotional Stuff. Please read other post if you are not willing to swallow melodramatic stuff. And respect my feelings, thanks.
I'm fighting so hard not to cry. So many other guys, I need time to get over you. I'm fighting so hard to not give in and break down. Its so much easier to fall into pieces. There are other girls falling for you too, but I keep my lips sealed. My hearts on the line, and if you could see me through, you would know I would let you go if you never see me more than just friends. But that doesn't mean I stop caring.
Some told me not to fight the feeling. I know one day you will just be another crush if I just let it die. But for now, I am trying to enjoy my moments with you, as just friends. It hurts but its so much better than not talking to you.
At least, I can remember your voice so I can sleep at night instead of crying over what could have been.
If I had the courage, I would want to tell you how I felt. I won't expect anything from you, just want you to know, so that I don't have to hide anymore. But then, can you accept it? More likely than not, you'll withdraw away.
Then again, I got the vibe you're treating me as your little sister.
So much pain just for your friendship. I'm wondering when will this pain be over, so I can be happy just how we are.
And when you read this, do you even know if its you?
I'm sick of this emotional shit. A simple friendship complicated by unrequited feelings. Many are suffering from this situation. It will be nice that for once, the person I adore returns the same feeling.
People asking me when will I get a boyfriend. Should I even jump into that bandwagon? I don't think I am ready when my heart's with someone else. I'd rather be alone than be in a relationship that doesn't serve its purpose.
Thanks for reading. :) Just support me as a friend, I'll get over this.
If you do like me, whoever you are, don't keep quiet. Come forward and tell me. I don't mind, even if you annoy the shit out of me. I'll tell you if I return the feelings and if not, you can wish either to still be friends or not.
I understand how it feels. And I want to be the nice adored one.
Okay, there's a been a lot of friendship problems going around me. Not me, but around me. Mostly because they don't dare to address the issues. Either it is a case of fear, or it is a case of no one's listening.
So, I will like to request you,my friend, reader whatever..
If you have any issues with me, personal or otherwise, do tell me in the face, or just post small notes if you don't dare. But do tell me, just try to be specific, but nice. Feedback, not give insulting comments. Please do that. Tell me how it affects you.
I need someone to tell me if I do something wrong, when I don't realise what's going on.
I'll see where I can compromise with you, or do what you've wanted.
Cause small things can build up, and they don't fade fast enough.
I love this skin!! So beautiful! And all the glassy effect for the background! I wanted something different from my usual fantasy/emo style. LOOK WHAT I FOUND! FUN, Cuteness with sprinkles of classyness.
Xiang Ting, my style of cute is prettier! Hehe!
Xav is my all-time favourite designer. All her designs are gorgeous. The whole thing is done by Adobe Illustrator! EE! I hate that software, its takes me a long time to do the tracings. But I love how it turns out at the end.
My father presented me a 400 Gig Hard-disk!! For my brother...a PSP SLIM! ZOMG. Now, I am loving wrestling games even more.
I love my birthday date. Cause I can celebrate Christmas, My Birthday, New Year celebration and My Brother's Birthday! Woah, a totally celebration fest! Anymore, I am going to get sick of cakes! :P
So excited about Drama again! The Gems production and My CCA. The Gems production, I am suppose to be one of the cruel stepsisters for Cinderella. The twist is , it is a comedy. So I can be the bimbotic, bitch who thinks she is the best sexiest thing ever happened. Not like I am not one...
The costumes are diverse! From Chinese man, rags to prom dresses and gowns. Even have fairy wings! The props are fantastic! The wigs, and tons of jewellery. Sofa's, swords (real -looking ones) plants and so many others. If the jewellery is fake, I can't even tell! I have to wear those disco, glitter short skirt. OMG. Never mind, I can feel how its like to be a 'streetwalker' for once. Streetwalker = sexy slut. I don't know if I need to wear make-up. I bet they want to make me look damn weird with the make-up. Evil people.
Before going home, the drama people went nuts. The guys took a umbrella handle cover.. which looks like a transparent perky dick.. Took two balls and plus the umbrella handle cover, and they attach it .. "THERE". The drama teacher saw them. and she shook her head, resigned. LOL. We must have been one bunch of horny monkeys.
I hope next time, the drama cca becomes a bigger production and can perform for bigger audiences. Simone and Wendy are the best teachers I can ever have! Wendy is the only teacher who said feeling afraid is good!
I have not even improve my WebP and etc. Been catching up with my secondary school friends. What a blast!! Yu han, she still rocks like ever.
In this time of New Year, I have noticed I have created a habit of uplifiting myself whenever I am down instead of staying sad. It's pretty neat trick! Just watch funny videos, read books about things you've never knew before that can enlighten you, and have a good laugh with friends. SUPERB MEDICINE.
And I don't know. I kind of feel free to express to someone.. "I LOVE YOU. I don't expect you to have the same feelings, but I want you to know, I care. And support you all the way. Best friend. Even in one-sided story~" It relieves a lot of weight in my chest. For now, I think the person should remain anonymous, to protect his identity. LOLS!
The only way to be happy is to be vulnerable, and know your resources. -The Power Play
Do you even want to be vulnerable to others? Most probably, your answer is no. But that is how we can ever get close to anyone. And happiest. Of course if the other abuses you, its time to get out.
I still don't dare to open up. My ego can't handle it. But its getting weaker, :D
More About Me
Well, I love myself and sometimes I just wish I was like, Paris Hilton. Not PEREZ, that ugly journalist.
Anyway, I am pretty addicted to social life. I crave lazing around, and just hug everybody.
But of course, I don't dare to do that, cause people tend to assume wrong things.
I hate it when people like you and make you feel guilty, like it's your fault that they like you.
Get a grip, and all I wanted was just friendship.
Pretty much all of the things I do, I do sometimes out of fear, or love.
Usually its fear. But if I do the best things, it's love for sure.
