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YOU ALL CAN SAY I AM NARCISSTIC AND PRIDEFUL NOW! CAUSE I BLOODY WON MY PLACE INTO TOP 20 FOR MY SKIN DESIGN!!! Freakyyy!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! Anyone who wanna come down to National Library, 7th floor, 2pm this friday for the judging, do contact me! :D I am A FREAKING WINNER!! WOOOOOOOHHHH!! LOL. I think when I win 1st, 2nd, or 3rd, I am going to go BOLLOCKS. HEEHEE!
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Would you laugh if I tell you...this ? The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. Life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating . . . then finish off as an orgasm. :)
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You wanna know WHY
you MUST STOP WEARING ANY LEATHER, FUR, WOOL thingies?Watch these videos and see if you still have a heart. For more info, go to www.peta.org / www.furisdead.com GRAPHIC IMAGES, BE WARNED.You need Adobe Flash Player 9 to view the video. Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org.
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I just looked at SP and everything, timetables and exams. Oh god. I wish I could just lay off the depression I feel whenever I think about the exams. I just flunk my java so badly! Oh god, Mr Tan would be so disappointed. And I feel so ashame of MAYA. Something I like, and I just didn't do it well. Disappointed Mr Faizal . Who's next?I don't know. I am very disappointed with myself, for procastinating, for not prioritizing well. All I could think of was 'Lets have fun!' when my inner voice cries out for me to pay attention to my studies. Oh god, why didn't I listen? Its like a vicious cycle.Everytime something fails, I feel so guilty, cry and blah blah. But when the real time comes to actually do it, I STILL FUCKING PROCASTINATE. Seriously, what the fuck is my problem? I keep holding myself again and again. PLEASE, I am crying out for someone to discipline me. I have tried again and again. I am just a sucker of temptations. Damn my cravings for internet, damn my cravings to blog, damn my cravings to stay high when there are better things to deal with, and damn my desire to impress him. And damn the naggings I hear at HOME, repeating that I am just a failure. NOW, I AM FAILURE. HAPPY NOW? Fuck off. Fuck all you people that want me to fail. Just go somewhere better, like hell maybe? I have read a lot of things on how to stop procastination. The key word is prioritize and cut the task up. I KNOW. I just know deep inside I don't want to follow the instructions. I feel so sick. I just don't like to do something I don't like. Thats just it. The reason I always procastinate, I don't like it. But I want to do it... And the task, no matter big or small, just feels hard to do. Maybe I am just bloody lazy to visualize or something. Can I operate my mind now? Angry angry angry. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Now I am whiner isn't it? Way to go, girl! You did it again!
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UPDATE:
The pics are clickables! And yes, if you want them all ( not all are published) , just msn me, and your pics will be there in no time! :P
1A01 Chalet... SUPER long POSt! You've been warned, now enjoy this ride!
Oh, did I mention? I went WILD WILD WET! Take that! :P
The First Day: (BBQ & Games till 2 a.m, plus watching for SunRise to come!)
At first, everything was slow.
But, after someone did his boogie woogie dance...  Things start to change..  And EVERYONE started crowding around the BBQ!  As everyone pondered... how do we cook this thing?  The lizard lies on the white box, unaware of its fate.. While the princesses, chatting happily, do not know what they are going to be served.
 I managed to capture their last smiles...  while others think about how to cook the green slime...  Aini comes in with more food!  The FOOOD!  Wenjie as the MAIN chef! Kudos to you man~ I wonder where the lizard went...    Woah! Gan Joo taking over as chef! Scary siah...
I think Xiang Ting got the lizard, cause she's acting pretty different...  She even remembers how small the lizard is! See her fingers? It must have been delicious...   The sausage calls out to the sleepy head..   -Sleepy head : HUH?! Finally, he wakes up. And guess where he goes? The dining table of course!  yummy chicken... YUMMY!  How's the cooking people?!   Dev- Tha' chicken Rawks my socks! Me- only chicken? hehe... NEWS FLASH: SHORT SEGMENT OF CAMWHORING! Wooooot!  I dunno how it end up like this.. Cheeryl and Me must have been so hot, the camera exploded!       AND WE SAW A CAT!   Cat sees food, cat EATS IT! Okay, camwhoring session over.. BACK to business! After all the barbeque, thought of going KBOX. Disappointed since the KBOX is like, what?, 15 + per person?, we all went to the 'jungle' area and played games like nobody's business. There were musical chairs (using BOULDERS, and no, I am not kidding), polar bear hunter /witch healer. murderer.victim game. And I LOSE LOR! wah kao, easy game seh. And I LOST. How pathetic is that?! Bloody forfeit. See that poor little yellow girl there? Can you just feel sympathy welling up in your heart? Blame those ebil people... make her do forfeit.  And then, since we all did not want to sleep.. Went to the beach to wait for the sunrise. Actually debated which side of the beach the sun is rising.. LOL..   Sunny Sunny Sky!    LAO DA was there!XDDD Played with the panaromic mode in my camera... Beginner style.. but still nice!!    The Second Day: WENT WILD WILD WET. And cause I can't take any camera into the water... the memories are just in my head. Just imagine this... Aini, Cheeryl, Dev, Mei Peng, Sebastian & Me went swimming. And played the Ular lah and the mega steep slide. I was freaking scared, I almost vomitted. Luckily, I didn't. Hehe! The Third Day: Celebrated Ethel's birthday! Look at the power of Ethel's mouth! No wonder all the candles died after her breath~ XP  Happy faces, cakes in stomach! HAHA!    Before all the celebration, we went double biking! At least I did... cause I am such a noob in cycling. XD  Went to the redhouse. Bloody creepy area. It's like so deserted, so out of civilisation. Excuse me for my exaggeratedness, cause I don't like that place very much. I didn't even dare to look for the house beyond the red gates. Say I am crazy, but I felt coldness around the area. I don't wish to go there ever again. PERIOD. On the third day also it rained.. cause the world is sad that my friend's 2 psps gone.  Returned the bike and checked out!! Had a fun time in chalet.. wanna go again, but really man, dunno if got money... Part time halal jobs offerers, anyone? :)
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- My beautiful class, 1A01
 -My beautiful artwork. Bow to me, the great Year 1 artist. :P
WOW! SKATOOSH! My energy level is back high people! You know what? I didn't know I NEEDED so much sleep! I thought I was so full of energy when in fact deep inside, all I could feel was emptyness. No love, absolutely nothing. I was actually quite shocked I could actually survive those days! I literally felt like I was becoming a sociopath. I sucked people's resources, I don't feel guilty, I enjoy lying and.. believe this, I just don't care about anyone. All I wanted to do was to win. Thats just literally sucky but I kind of enjoyed the feeling of not caring for anyone. I felt free, in a cold way. But after getting the required sleep and naps, I literally felt so much more alive. I can actually feel love once more! I am not joking. I actually had fun helping my mother to vaccuum the house after resting. LOL.. Maybe all it takes to be a happy housewife is more sleep..and more money! Maybe I should check if I feel cold, it means I need to sleep more than normal. Hmmm.. So tmrw.., I am posting some of the pics of the chalet~ And my artwork. Kua kua kua... what a showoff eh? XD Yesterday, went job hunting with puay ling and shin puay! even tho the response and the result after the day wasnt encouraging, it was fun walking with them~ Bonding and bonding.
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YOU ALL CAN SAY I AM NARCISSTIC AND PRIDEFUL NOW! CAUSE I BLOODY WON MY PLACE INTO TOP 20 FOR MY SKIN DESIGN!!! Freakyyy!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! Anyone who wanna come down to National Library, 7th floor, 2pm this friday for the judging, do contact me! :D I am A FREAKING WINNER!! WOOOOOOOHHHH!! LOL. I think when I win 1st, 2nd, or 3rd, I am going to go BOLLOCKS. HEEHEE!
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Would you laugh if I tell you...this ? The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. Life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating . . . then finish off as an orgasm. :)
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You wanna know WHY
you MUST STOP WEARING ANY LEATHER, FUR, WOOL thingies?Watch these videos and see if you still have a heart. For more info, go to www.peta.org / www.furisdead.com GRAPHIC IMAGES, BE WARNED.You need Adobe Flash Player 9 to view the video. Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org.
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I just looked at SP and everything, timetables and exams. Oh god. I wish I could just lay off the depression I feel whenever I think about the exams. I just flunk my java so badly! Oh god, Mr Tan would be so disappointed. And I feel so ashame of MAYA. Something I like, and I just didn't do it well. Disappointed Mr Faizal . Who's next?I don't know. I am very disappointed with myself, for procastinating, for not prioritizing well. All I could think of was 'Lets have fun!' when my inner voice cries out for me to pay attention to my studies. Oh god, why didn't I listen? Its like a vicious cycle.Everytime something fails, I feel so guilty, cry and blah blah. But when the real time comes to actually do it, I STILL FUCKING PROCASTINATE. Seriously, what the fuck is my problem? I keep holding myself again and again. PLEASE, I am crying out for someone to discipline me. I have tried again and again. I am just a sucker of temptations. Damn my cravings for internet, damn my cravings to blog, damn my cravings to stay high when there are better things to deal with, and damn my desire to impress him. And damn the naggings I hear at HOME, repeating that I am just a failure. NOW, I AM FAILURE. HAPPY NOW? Fuck off. Fuck all you people that want me to fail. Just go somewhere better, like hell maybe? I have read a lot of things on how to stop procastination. The key word is prioritize and cut the task up. I KNOW. I just know deep inside I don't want to follow the instructions. I feel so sick. I just don't like to do something I don't like. Thats just it. The reason I always procastinate, I don't like it. But I want to do it... And the task, no matter big or small, just feels hard to do. Maybe I am just bloody lazy to visualize or something. Can I operate my mind now? Angry angry angry. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Sad Now I am whiner isn't it? Way to go, girl! You did it again!
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UPDATE:
The pics are clickables! And yes, if you want them all ( not all are published) , just msn me, and your pics will be there in no time! :P
1A01 Chalet... SUPER long POSt! You've been warned, now enjoy this ride!
Oh, did I mention? I went WILD WILD WET! Take that! :P
The First Day: (BBQ & Games till 2 a.m, plus watching for SunRise to come!)
At first, everything was slow.
But, after someone did his boogie woogie dance... Things start to change.. And EVERYONE started crowding around the BBQ! As everyone pondered... how do we cook this thing? The lizard lies on the white box, unaware of its fate.. While the princesses, chatting happily, do not know what they are going to be served.
I managed to capture their last smiles... while others think about how to cook the green slime... Aini comes in with more food! The FOOOD! Wenjie as the MAIN chef! Kudos to you man~ I wonder where the lizard went... Woah! Gan Joo taking over as chef! Scary siah...
I think Xiang Ting got the lizard, cause she's acting pretty different... She even remembers how small the lizard is! See her fingers? It must have been delicious... The sausage calls out to the sleepy head.. -Sleepy head : HUH?! Finally, he wakes up. And guess where he goes? The dining table of course! yummy chicken... YUMMY! How's the cooking people?! Dev- Tha' chicken Rawks my socks! Me- only chicken? hehe... NEWS FLASH: SHORT SEGMENT OF CAMWHORING! Wooooot!I dunno how it end up like this.. Cheeryl and Me must have been so hot, the camera exploded! AND WE SAW A CAT! Cat sees food, cat EATS IT! Okay, camwhoring session over.. BACK to business! After all the barbeque, thought of going KBOX. Disappointed since the KBOX is like, what?, 15 + per person?, we all went to the 'jungle' area and played games like nobody's business. There were musical chairs (using BOULDERS, and no, I am not kidding), polar bear hunter /witch healer. murderer.victim game. And I LOSE LOR! wah kao, easy game seh. And I LOST. How pathetic is that?! Bloody forfeit. See that poor little yellow girl there? Can you just feel sympathy welling up in your heart? Blame those ebil people... make her do forfeit. And then, since we all did not want to sleep.. Went to the beach to wait for the sunrise. Actually debated which side of the beach the sun is rising.. LOL.. Sunny Sunny Sky! LAO DA was there!XDDD Played with the panaromic mode in my camera... Beginner style.. but still nice!! The Second Day: WENT WILD WILD WET. And cause I can't take any camera into the water... the memories are just in my head. Just imagine this... Aini, Cheeryl, Dev, Mei Peng, Sebastian & Me went swimming. And played the Ular lah and the mega steep slide. I was freaking scared, I almost vomitted. Luckily, I didn't. Hehe! The Third Day: Celebrated Ethel's birthday! Look at the power of Ethel's mouth! No wonder all the candles died after her breath~ XP Happy faces, cakes in stomach! HAHA! Before all the celebration, we went double biking! At least I did... cause I am such a noob in cycling. XD Went to the redhouse. Bloody creepy area. It's like so deserted, so out of civilisation. Excuse me for my exaggeratedness, cause I don't like that place very much. I didn't even dare to look for the house beyond the red gates. Say I am crazy, but I felt coldness around the area. I don't wish to go there ever again. PERIOD. On the third day also it rained.. cause the world is sad that my friend's 2 psps gone. Returned the bike and checked out!! Had a fun time in chalet.. wanna go again, but really man, dunno if got money... Part time halal jobs offerers, anyone? :)
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- My beautiful class, 1A01
-My beautiful artwork. Bow to me, the great Year 1 artist. :P WOW! SKATOOSH! My energy level is back high people! You know what? I didn't know I NEEDED so much sleep! I thought I was so full of energy when in fact deep inside, all I could feel was emptyness. No love, absolutely nothing. I was actually quite shocked I could actually survive those days! I literally felt like I was becoming a sociopath. I sucked people's resources, I don't feel guilty, I enjoy lying and.. believe this, I just don't care about anyone. All I wanted to do was to win. Thats just literally sucky but I kind of enjoyed the feeling of not caring for anyone. I felt free, in a cold way. But after getting the required sleep and naps, I literally felt so much more alive. I can actually feel love once more! I am not joking. I actually had fun helping my mother to vaccuum the house after resting. LOL.. Maybe all it takes to be a happy housewife is more sleep..and more money! Maybe I should check if I feel cold, it means I need to sleep more than normal. Hmmm.. So tmrw.., I am posting some of the pics of the chalet~ And my artwork. Kua kua kua... what a showoff eh? XD Yesterday, went job hunting with puay ling and shin puay! even tho the response and the result after the day wasnt encouraging, it was fun walking with them~ Bonding and bonding.
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Well, I love myself and sometimes I just wish I was like, Paris Hilton. Not PEREZ, that ugly journalist.
Anyway, I am pretty addicted to social life. I crave lazing around, and just hug everybody.
But of course, I don't dare to do that, cause people tend to assume wrong things.
I hate it when people like you and make you feel guilty, like it's your fault that they like you.
Get a grip, and all I wanted was just friendship.
Pretty much all of the things I do, I do sometimes out of fear, or love.
Usually its fear. But if I do the best things, it's love for sure.
Email: Email me, babe.
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Siti Aisyah
Sweet Seventeen.
Singaporean.
Capricorn.
Good Gone Bad
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