Emotional Stuff. Please read other post if you are not willing to swallow melodramatic stuff. And respect my feelings, thanks.
I'm fighting so hard not to cry. So many other guys, I need time to get over you. I'm fighting so hard to not give in and break down. Its so much easier to fall into pieces. There are other girls falling for you too, but I keep my lips sealed. My hearts on the line, and if you could see me through, you would know I would let you go if you never see me more than just friends. But that doesn't mean I stop caring.
Some told me not to fight the feeling. I know one day you will just be another crush if I just let it die. But for now, I am trying to enjoy my moments with you, as just friends. It hurts but its so much better than not talking to you.
At least, I can remember your voice so I can sleep at night instead of crying over what could have been.
If I had the courage, I would want to tell you how I felt. I won't expect anything from you, just want you to know, so that I don't have to hide anymore. But then, can you accept it? More likely than not, you'll withdraw away.
Then again, I got the vibe you're treating me as your little sister.
So much pain just for your friendship. I'm wondering when will this pain be over, so I can be happy just how we are.
And when you read this, do you even know if its you?
I'm sick of this emotional shit. A simple friendship complicated by unrequited feelings. Many are suffering from this situation. It will be nice that for once, the person I adore returns the same feeling.
People asking me when will I get a boyfriend. Should I even jump into that bandwagon? I don't think I am ready when my heart's with someone else. I'd rather be alone than be in a relationship that doesn't serve its purpose.
Thanks for reading. :) Just support me as a friend, I'll get over this.
If you do like me, whoever you are, don't keep quiet. Come forward and tell me. I don't mind, even if you annoy the shit out of me. I'll tell you if I return the feelings and if not, you can wish either to still be friends or not.
I understand how it feels. And I want to be the nice adored one.