Not feeling too good right now.

Tried to cheer myself up. Managed though, superficially. But the relapse are getting less painful now. And ends much shorter, though it keeps starting.

I am trying. I am trying to get over it. I really am.

The problem is I am still hoping. And I can't let go.

Its like an addiction, a nice warm addiction. Like for coffee or something. When it goes, or when it is with me, its bad and bad.

Sometimes I ask myself, is something not quite right with me? I am insecure again. Dang.

Just want someone fun, a lot of chemistry, understanding, share some common interest and supportive of me. That is all. I didn't know it was so hard to ask.

I think I just fall for the wrong one, at the wrong lane. And wow, does the bruise hurt.



Tightened braces today. Hurts on my left side. Try to hit me and I'll kick your ass. Imagine, chewing on one side, when both sides hurt, just the other is less intense.

Dvde a bit on the hold. 3DF too. Can't focus. Indulgence in pain is such a bitch in the ass.



I think I need some rest. Love you people. <3

Not feeling too good right now.

Tried to cheer myself up. Managed though, superficially. But the relapse are getting less painful now. And ends much shorter, though it keeps starting.

I am trying. I am trying to get over it. I really am.

The problem is I am still hoping. And I can't let go.

Its like an addiction, a nice warm addiction. Like for coffee or something. When it goes, or when it is with me, its bad and bad.

Sometimes I ask myself, is something not quite right with me? I am insecure again. Dang.

Just want someone fun, a lot of chemistry, understanding, share some common interest and supportive of me. That is all. I didn't know it was so hard to ask.

I think I just fall for the wrong one, at the wrong lane. And wow, does the bruise hurt.



Tightened braces today. Hurts on my left side. Try to hit me and I'll kick your ass. Imagine, chewing on one side, when both sides hurt, just the other is less intense.

Dvde a bit on the hold. 3DF too. Can't focus. Indulgence in pain is such a bitch in the ass.



I think I need some rest. Love you people. <3