Been quite a day today! Changed some of my hard core habits of procastination and succeeded! My weight is stabilising already and slowly going down. Which is excellent!

There was a lot of negative energy in me that I had to get rid of. Been brewing and boiling while I continued my daily life. So many tears gone now and hurts heal, but obviously there will be some damn wound sticking inside. Flapping, bleeding, still waiting for a cure. I was praying someday my life turns better. And now, I kept seeing a lot of tv programmes that size doesn't matter, love is all around : if you know how to find them. And I cried. All my life I thought I was pathetic, but instead there are people of more dire cicumstances so much more happier than I am, despite having the same fears. Its all the more inspiring, touching and encouraging to my self confidence. I've realised that I've been around people who themselves think they are pathetic and wants me to go along with them. My condoloscence..

I've read that God creates each one of us and paired us with another person. Every one have their own partners, living and breathing somewhere. The problem is whether I would find him right in time. Only God knows.

And man, I AM SO PISSED! She is making me mad! GAHH! Her voice is so annoying, hysterical and so... UGH! Whycan't she know when to stop taking?

i've got to stop here. can't make a proper blog post for years already. my heart is stuck . mind so full of garbage, and thorns..

SEE YA!

Been quite a day today! Changed some of my hard core habits of procastination and succeeded! My weight is stabilising already and slowly going down. Which is excellent!

There was a lot of negative energy in me that I had to get rid of. Been brewing and boiling while I continued my daily life. So many tears gone now and hurts heal, but obviously there will be some damn wound sticking inside. Flapping, bleeding, still waiting for a cure. I was praying someday my life turns better. And now, I kept seeing a lot of tv programmes that size doesn't matter, love is all around : if you know how to find them. And I cried. All my life I thought I was pathetic, but instead there are people of more dire cicumstances so much more happier than I am, despite having the same fears. Its all the more inspiring, touching and encouraging to my self confidence. I've realised that I've been around people who themselves think they are pathetic and wants me to go along with them. My condoloscence..

I've read that God creates each one of us and paired us with another person. Every one have their own partners, living and breathing somewhere. The problem is whether I would find him right in time. Only God knows.

And man, I AM SO PISSED! She is making me mad! GAHH! Her voice is so annoying, hysterical and so... UGH! Whycan't she know when to stop taking?

i've got to stop here. can't make a proper blog post for years already. my heart is stuck . mind so full of garbage, and thorns..

SEE YA!